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To Triptan or not to Triptan

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Hi RM, Congratulations!  I’ve been trying yoga, relaxation and meditation for ages… haven’t had much luck with them myself yet… but I feel like singing and dancing to hear that it can work for you! Stay with that teacher!!! Sal

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For the past 6 months, my migraine routine has been thus: at the first sign of the fluttery blindness, I go home, lay down, take a Triptan, and pray for it all to be over. Usually I fall into a unsettling, nauseous sleep and wake up to a bruised head about four hours later. The headache is gone, but I still feel "funny" if you know what I mean (and I’m sure you all do). I’ve never been able to fully avert a headache, and I’ve tried the usual suspects (Imitrex, Relpax, etc etc). But last night something new happened. During yoga class, I saw the fluttering and was about to pack up and go home. But I was inspired by my teacher, who says wonderfully calm things throughout the class. Yoga is great because it’s just for you, no one else. And it allows you to really listen to your body. I decided to keep practicing — what’s the worst that could happen? I throw up in the bathroom? Big deal. So amazingly… I never got the headache. The blindness went away. I didn’t take anything, not even aspirin. This is a huge milestone for me. Could it be that all the Triptans I’ve been taking have had the opposite effect — maybe they make me crash out for hours and are the reason I’m nauseous. The best part about last night was being able to go over to a friend’s place and watch the Yankees-Red Sox game. (I won’t say who I rooted for, since that’s as bad as talking about politics.) I could so easily have missed that really fun experience.

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That sounds like a breakthrough.  Lately I have found when I get all the signs of an impending migraine, but somehow get distracted…it might go away.  Not every time, but many times lately during the day I have averted the migraine by not thinking about the pain.  Maybe I relaxed instead of tensing and worrying about the pain? I firmly believe that relaxation can be helpful no matter what.  Keep it up…all in all you will be healthier. Michelle

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – For the past 6 months, my migraine routine has been thus: at the first sign of the fluttery blindness, I go home, lay down, take a Triptan, and pray for it all to be over. Usually I fall into a unsettling, nauseous sleep and wake up to a bruised head about four hours later. The headache is gone, but I still feel "funny" if you know what I mean (and I’m sure you all do). I’ve never been able to fully avert a headache, and I’ve tried the usual suspects (Imitrex, Relpax, etc etc). But last night something new happened. During yoga class, I saw the fluttering and was about to pack up and go home. But I was inspired by my teacher, who says wonderfully calm things throughout the class. Yoga is great because it’s just for you, no one else. And it allows you to really listen to your body. I decided to keep practicing — what’s the worst that could happen? I throw up in the bathroom? Big deal. So amazingly… I never got the headache. The blindness went away. I didn’t take anything, not even aspirin. This is a huge milestone for me. Could it be that all the Triptans I’ve been taking have had the opposite effect — maybe they make me crash out for hours and are the reason I’m nauseous. The best part about last night was being able to go over to a friend’s place and watch the Yankees-Red Sox game. (I won’t say who I rooted for, since that’s as bad as talking about politics.) I could so easily have missed that really fun experience.

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But last night something new happened. During yoga class, I saw the fluttering and was about to pack up and go home. But I was inspired by my teacher [and] decided to keep practicing — what’s the worst that could happen? I throw up in the bathroom? Big deal. So amazingly… I never got the headache. The blindness went away. I didn’t take anything, not even aspirin. This is a huge milestone for me. Could it be that all the Triptans I’ve been taking have had the opposite effect — maybe they make me crash out for hours and are the reason I’m nauseous.

While i agree that yoga, meditation, and relaxation can help migraines, and that triptans can increase the sensation of nausea, if i were you, i would work through a few more episodes this way before jumping to conclusions. You might have been experiencing an ocular migraine — all light-show, no pain. I get those a lot, which is why i have learned to wait for the onset of actual eye pain before taking my triptan of choice (Amerge), even though the standard instructions are to take it at the first sign of visual aura. Cordially, cat yronwode

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OT-post doctor appt insomnia report

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Ok, went to the doctor yesterday for my insomnia.  She prescribed xanax, which is an anti-anxiety med.  I was aprehensive about taking this, I have seen people get hooked on these, and that’s the last thing I need.  She prescribed 1mg tablets, but I only took a 1/2 to see how it would feel. NOTHING.  I didn’t sleep a wink.  I’m so tired, I’m getting desperate. My boss is sympathetic, and I am now going to start taking 1 1/2 hour lunches so I can go to the gym every day to at least get some cardio – I always sleep better on days I exercise.  Exercise seems to be the most effective sleep aid, but I’ve been struggling to get in there more than a couple times a week.  This sleep thing is effecting every aspect of my life – health, fitness, attitude, relationships, work quality, etc…. So, off to the gym today, and hopefully I’ll sleep tonight! det Just curious – as its affecting me right now…. What are your eating habits like lately?  I know on last report you were still losing, which means you wre still cutting calories.

My eating habits, at least in the last week have been high carb, lower protein.  I’ve been eating more comfort and convenient foods, but still in a calorie deficit.  I’ve seen a slight increase on the scale… For me, when I’m in lowcal diet mode my sleeping goes haywire – I think its something to do with trying to sleep and tummy being empty. Have you considered a light evening meal to help you sleep?

No, I always thought eating before bed was a no-no.  But I just read somewhere today that a high carb snack right before bad can be a good thing for sleep.  I’m thinking warm milk with some Nesquick… What other things have you tried.  The xanax should help slow your mind down, but for the sleeping – have you tried any of the natural sleep aids (teas, warm milk, reading, yoga, relaxation/destressing techniques)?

I’m thinking about buying a massaging/heating pad to lay on, and going to get some of the Sleepy Time tea tonight after work. det – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text –

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What other things have you tried.  The xanax should help slow your mind down, but for the sleeping – have you tried any of the natural sleep aids (teas, warm milk, reading, yoga, relaxation/destressing techniques)? I’m thinking about buying a massaging/heating pad to lay on, and going to get some of the Sleepy Time tea tonight after work.

I read something in a magazine today about putting a few drops of scented oil on a washcloth and putting it in the dryer with your clothes instead of a dryer sheet.  It won’t get rid of static at all but it will add a scent to your clothes for a few days.  It was suggested to use lavender with your pj’s and relaxing clothes and citrus for your daywear when you need an energy boost. I’m becoming addicted to my eye pillow.  :) Jennifer — WASHINGTON (Rooters) – A tragic fire on Monday destroyed the personal library of President George W. Bush. Both of his books have been lost. A presidential spokesman said the president was devastated as he had not finished coloring the second one.

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Benedryl is what my gyn suggested when I complained of (probably menopause-related) insomnia last year. He said that the active ingredient is the same as OTC sleep aids and if you buy in bulk (bottle rather than blister pack) it’s way cheaper. Has the added advantage of keeping me from snuffling all night during allergy season. Ann — "Feel free to send more. " Billy Mills volunteer Feel free to ask me about Billy Mills!

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Ok, went to the doctor yesterday for my insomnia.  She prescribed xanax, which is an anti-anxiety med. I never heard of that one. I took Xanax only once, and only 1/2 of one a .25 mg tablets during one of Marty’s medical crises. The sucker zorked me, but it didn’t make me sleepy. Not sure what your doc has against Ambien. I’ve only taken Ambien a couple of times. What I usually use is benadryl, which I think works quite well. Marty gets 50 mg IV benadryl before he gets his chemo, which zonks him out substantially more than the prescription sleeping pills he takes. Getting 50 mg IV is like getting 150 mg by mouth. In most circumstances I’ve found that a 25 mg benadryl tablet works wonders, although fortunately I’ve rarely had trouble sleeping. The few times it’s happened to me it’s really messed up my day, so I know you must be feeling miserable right now. If you haven’t tried this, I recommend it. And at least you won’t need a prescription. Good luck. Barbara Hirsch, Publisher OBESITY MEDS AND RESEARCH NEWS The latest in obesity research and weight loss drug development http://www.obesity-news.com/

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Benadryll is not great for the liver.

According to who? Barbara Hirsch, Publisher OBESITY MEDS AND RESEARCH NEWS The latest in obesity research and weight loss drug development http://www.obesity-news.com/

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Benadryll is not great for the liver. According to who? Barbara Hirsch, Publisher OBESITY MEDS AND RESEARCH NEWS The latest in obesity research and weight loss drug development http://www.obesity-news.com/

According to several posts and references I read during the height of my chemical sensitivities. People on the MCS group were reporting regular use of benadryl to supress their many reacations when the information was sposted with references. The U.S. online Yahoo group folded a while ago and I no longer have access to their archives. The Canadian group is not very experienced technically. However this item seems to contra indicate same. Maybe I am just adverse to medication unless absolutely required. Benadryl does give good snooze. CLINICAL PHARMACOLOGY (no site shown on Google) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Diphenhydramine HCl is an antihistamine with anticholinergic (drying) and sedative side effects. Antihistamines appear to compete with histamine for cell receptor sites on effector cells. Diphenhydramine is widely distributed throughout the body, including the CNS. Capsules and Elixir A single oral dose of diphenhydramine HCl is quickly absorbed with maximum activity occurring in approximately one hour. The duration of activity following an average dose of diphenhydramine HCl is from four to six hours. Little, if any, is excreted unchanged in the urine; most appears as the degradation products of metabolic transformation in the liver, which are almost completely excreted within 24 hours.

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Give it some time and see if the meds help and I hope you get some sleep. Good luck. Roxan

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Ok, went to the doctor yesterday for my insomnia.  She prescribed xanax, which is an anti-anxiety med.  I was aprehensive about taking this, I have seen people get hooked on these, and that’s the last thing I need.  She prescribed 1mg tablets, but I only took a 1/2 to see how it would feel. NOTHING.  I didn’t sleep a wink.  I’m so tired, I’m getting desperate. My boss is sympathetic, and I am now going to start taking 1 1/2 hour lunches so I can go to the gym every day to at least get some cardio – I always sleep better on days I exercise.  Exercise seems to be the most effective sleep aid, but I’ve been struggling to get in there more than a couple times a week.  This sleep thing is effecting every aspect of my life – health, fitness, attitude, relationships, work quality, etc…. So, off to the gym today, and hopefully I’ll sleep tonight! det

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Ok, went to the doctor yesterday for my insomnia.  She prescribed xanax, which is an anti-anxiety med.  I was aprehensive about taking this, I have seen people get hooked on these, and that’s the last thing I need.  She prescribed 1mg tablets, but I only took a 1/2 to see how it would feel. NOTHING.  I didn’t sleep a wink.  I’m so tired, I’m getting desperate. My boss is sympathetic, and I am now going to start taking 1 1/2 hour lunches so I can go to the gym every day to at least get some cardio – I always sleep better on days I exercise.  Exercise seems to be the most effective sleep aid, but I’ve been struggling to get in there more than a couple times a week.  This sleep thing is effecting every aspect of my life – health, fitness, attitude, relationships, work quality, etc….  So, off to the gym today, and hopefully I’ll sleep tonight! det

Just curious – as its affecting me right now…. What are your eating habits like lately?  I know on last report you were still losing, which means you wre still cutting calories. For me, when I’m in lowcal diet mode my sleeping goes haywire – I think its something to do with trying to sleep and tummy being empty. Have you considered a light evening meal to help you sleep? What other things have you tried.  The xanax should help slow your mind down, but for the sleeping – have you tried any of the natural sleep aids (teas, warm milk, reading, yoga, relaxation/destressing techniques)?

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Ok, went to the doctor yesterday for my insomnia.  She prescribed xanax, which is an anti-anxiety med. I never heard of that one. I took Xanax only once, and only 1/2 of one a .25 mg tablets during one of Marty’s medical crises. The sucker zorked me, but it didn’t make me sleepy. Not sure what your doc has against Ambien. I’ve only taken Ambien a couple of times. What I usually use is benadryl, which I think works quite well. Marty gets 50 mg IV benadryl before he gets his chemo, which zonks him out substantially more than the prescription sleeping pills he takes. Getting 50 mg IV is like getting 150 mg by mouth. In most circumstances I’ve found that a 25 mg benadryl tablet works wonders, although fortunately I’ve rarely had trouble sleeping. The few times it’s happened to me it’s really messed up my day, so I know you must be feeling miserable right now. If you haven’t tried this, I recommend it. And at least you won’t need a prescription. I’ve been taking the 25mg of benadryl, but seems that it just doesn’t do the trick – sometimes it does, but other times I feel nothing.  I never take anything on weekends, I generally am running around so much I sleep ok.  I wonder if I could take more Benadryl and still have it be ok? I know that my stress levels lately are just temporary, with work and such. Everything in my life right now is A-OK, so to me it’s weird that I can’t sleep.  I take comfort in knowing that it will pass, but I sure could use some sleep! det

Benadryll is not great for the liver.

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Ok, went to the doctor yesterday for my insomnia.  She prescribed xanax, which is an anti-anxiety med.  I was aprehensive about taking this, I have seen people get hooked on these, and that’s the last thing I need.  She prescribed 1mg tablets, but I only took a 1/2 to see how it would feel. NOTHING.  I didn’t sleep a wink.  I’m so tired, I’m getting desperate. My boss is sympathetic, and I am now going to start taking 1 1/2 hour lunches so I can go to the gym every day to at least get some cardio – I always sleep better on days I exercise.  Exercise seems to be the most effective sleep aid, but I’ve been struggling to get in there more than a couple times a week.  This sleep thing is effecting every aspect of my life – health, fitness, attitude, relationships, work quality, etc….  So, off to the gym today, and hopefully I’ll sleep tonight! det

You know how anti- med i am, but I adore Xanex when only using a half tablet once or twice a month for really bad sleeplessness. Even the smaller dose leaves me with a hangover. I keep one script of it at least six months. I used to take one every night years ago. xanex can be addictive, but i’m the proof that it doesn’t have to be. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text –

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Ok, went to the doctor yesterday for my insomnia.  She prescribed xanax, which is an anti-anxiety med. I never heard of that one. I took Xanax only once, and only 1/2 of one a .25 mg tablets during one of Marty’s medical crises. The sucker zorked me, but it didn’t make me sleepy. Not sure what your doc has against Ambien. I’ve only taken Ambien a couple of times. What I usually use is benadryl, which I think works quite well. Marty gets 50 mg IV benadryl before he gets his chemo, which zonks him out substantially more than the prescription sleeping pills he takes. Getting 50 mg IV is like getting 150 mg by mouth. In most circumstances I’ve found that a 25 mg benadryl tablet works wonders, although fortunately I’ve rarely had trouble sleeping. The few times it’s happened to me it’s really messed up my day, so I know you must be feeling miserable right now. If you haven’t tried this, I recommend it. And at least you won’t need a prescription. I’ve been taking the 25mg of benadryl, but seems that it just doesn’t do the trick – sometimes it does, but other times I feel nothing.  I never take anything on weekends, I generally am running around so much I sleep ok.  I wonder if I could take more Benadryl and still have it be ok? I know that my stress levels lately are just temporary, with work and such. Everything in my life right now is A-OK, so to me it’s weird that I can’t sleep.  I take comfort in knowing that it will pass, but I sure could use some sleep! det

Determined: I am hardly in a position to prescribe meds or even give you advice over the net.  However, I can assure you that many times I have given 50 to 100 mgs of benadryl IV to patients with no ill effects. Also, Sonata is a pretty decent drug that is short acting.  This is good if falling to sleep is the problem.  It isn’t so great if you wake up after initially going to sleep. Trazedone is an antidepressant that is frequently given off label for sleep. I like that because it isn’t associated with dependency.  Call your doc and tell him or her that Xanax isn’t working for you. j

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Ok, went to the doctor yesterday for my insomnia.  She prescribed xanax, which is an anti-anxiety med. I never heard of that one. I took Xanax only once, and only 1/2 of one a .25 mg tablets during one of Marty’s medical crises. The sucker zorked me, but it didn’t make me sleepy. Not sure what your doc has against Ambien. I’ve only taken Ambien a couple of times. What I usually use is benadryl, which I think works quite well. Marty gets 50 mg IV benadryl before he gets his chemo, which zonks him out substantially more than the prescription sleeping pills he takes. Getting 50 mg IV is like getting 150 mg by mouth. In most circumstances I’ve found that a 25 mg benadryl tablet works wonders, although fortunately I’ve rarely had trouble sleeping. The few times it’s happened to me it’s really messed up my day, so I know you must be feeling miserable right now. If you haven’t tried this, I recommend it. And at least you won’t need a prescription.

I’ve been taking the 25mg of benadryl, but seems that it just doesn’t do the trick – sometimes it does, but other times I feel nothing.  I never take anything on weekends, I generally am running around so much I sleep ok.  I wonder if I could take more Benadryl and still have it be ok? I know that my stress levels lately are just temporary, with work and such. Everything in my life right now is A-OK, so to me it’s weird that I can’t sleep.  I take comfort in knowing that it will pass, but I sure could use some sleep! det

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Ok, went to the doctor yesterday for my insomnia.  She prescribed xanax, which is an anti-anxiety med.

I never heard of that one. I took Xanax only once, and only 1/2 of one a .25 mg tablets during one of Marty’s medical crises. The sucker zorked me, but it didn’t make me sleepy. Not sure what your doc has against Ambien. I’ve only taken Ambien a couple of times. What I usually use is benadryl, which I think works quite well. Marty gets 50 mg IV benadryl before he gets his chemo, which zonks him out substantially more than the prescription sleeping pills he takes. Getting 50 mg IV is like getting 150 mg by mouth. In most circumstances I’ve found that a 25 mg benadryl tablet works wonders, although fortunately I’ve rarely had trouble sleeping. The few times it’s happened to me it’s really messed up my day, so I know you must be feeling miserable right now. If you haven’t tried this, I recommend it. And at least you won’t need a prescription. Good luck. Barbara Hirsch, Publisher OBESITY MEDS AND RESEARCH NEWS The latest in obesity research and weight loss drug development http://www.obesity-news.com/

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Ok, went to the doctor yesterday for my insomnia.  She prescribed xanax, which is an anti-anxiety med.  I was aprehensive about taking this, I have seen people get hooked on these, and that’s the last thing I need.  She prescribed 1mg tablets, but I only took a 1/2 to see how it would feel. NOTHING.  I didn’t sleep a wink.  I’m so tired, I’m getting desperate. My boss is sympathetic, and I am now going to start taking 1 1/2 hour lunches so I can go to the gym every day to at least get some cardio – I always sleep better on days I exercise.  Exercise seems to be the most effective sleep aid, but I’ve been struggling to get in there more than a couple times a week.  This sleep thing is effecting every aspect of my life – health, fitness, attitude, relationships, work quality, etc….  So, off to the gym today, and hopefully I’ll sleep tonight! det

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Just because the liver metabolizes something doesn’t mean that it is toxic to the liver.  In fact, I once took care of a precious little girl with a liver transplant.  She and the other wanna transplants about live on Benadryl for the itching caused by liver failure prior to getting new livers. Thanks for handling this one. I did a medline, couldn’t find anything that indicated benadryl or H1 histamine blockers in general, were hepatotoxic. There’s certainly no indication in the prescribing information. You can always find oddball patient reports, but that doesn’t make it true, or relevant to others. And if you are personally having a problem, then the best thing to do is not take that particular drug. That "left arm movement" thing must be one for the books. <G Barbara Hirsch, Publisher OBESITY MEDS AND RESEARCH NEWS The latest in obesity research and weight loss drug development http://www.obesity-news.com

Am born to teach – at least when the alternative is leaving the computer to do domestic chores. As far as the left arm thing goes, it is bizarre to the nth degree. Meanwhile, I have given vast amounts of benadryl to literally thousands of patients and I am the only one who seems to have this problem.  And it really isn’t a problem unless you are sitting or standing directly to my left.  In that case, it would be more your problem than mine:) j

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Ok, went to the doctor yesterday for my insomnia.  She prescribed xanax, which is an anti-anxiety med.  I was aprehensive about taking this, I have seen people get hooked on these, and that’s the last thing I need.  She prescribed 1mg tablets, but I only took a 1/2 to see how it would feel. NOTHING.  I didn’t sleep a wink.  I’m so tired, I’m getting desperate. My boss is sympathetic, and I am now going to start taking 1 1/2 hour lunches so I can go to the gym every day to at least get some cardio – I always sleep better on days I exercise.  Exercise seems to be the most effective sleep aid, but I’ve been struggling to get in there more than a couple times a week.  This sleep thing is effecting every aspect of my life – health, fitness, attitude, relationships, work quality, etc…. So, off to the gym today, and hopefully I’ll sleep tonight! det

Hopefully, you are sleeping better now.  You might be better served by seeking out a doc associated with the American Academy of Sleep Medicine if a couple of attempts with your own doc doesn’t work. Ambien works for many people who are unable to fall asleep, but it is in the controlled category as well. I’ve taken 50mg of Benadryl with a result of just feeling grouchy afterwards, Melatonin with the result of a couple of yawns, but no sleep. These seem have worked for others, however.  Fortunately, my episodes of insomnia have been short-lived. Silly as it may sound, don’t use your bed for watching TV, doing paperwork, etc.  Get clutter out.  Make the room dark, there are so many "glowing" buttons on electronics these days. Leave the room and do something boring until you feel tired enough to sleep. A couple of sites with some useful info: http://www.aasmnet.org/disorderspub.htm http://www.healthysleeping.com/sleep/sleeping.asp

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Thanks, motu!

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Ok, went to the doctor yesterday for my insomnia.  She prescribed xanax, which is an anti-anxiety med.  I was aprehensive about taking this, I have seen people get hooked on these, and that’s the last thing I need.  She prescribed 1mg tablets, but I only took a 1/2 to see how it would feel. NOTHING.  I didn’t sleep a wink.  I’m so tired, I’m getting desperate. My boss is sympathetic, and I am now going to start taking 1 1/2 hour lunches so I can go to the gym every day to at least get some cardio – I always sleep better on days I exercise.  Exercise seems to be the most effective sleep aid, but I’ve been struggling to get in there more than a couple times a week.  This sleep thing is effecting every aspect of my life – health, fitness, attitude, relationships, work quality, etc…. So, off to the gym today, and hopefully I’ll sleep tonight! det Hopefully, you are sleeping better now.  You might be better served by seeking out a doc associated with the American Academy of Sleep Medicine if a couple of attempts with your own doc doesn’t work. Ambien works for many people who are unable to fall asleep, but it is in the controlled category as well. I’ve taken 50mg of Benadryl with a result of just feeling grouchy afterwards, Melatonin with the result of a couple of yawns, but no sleep. These seem have worked for others, however.  Fortunately, my episodes of insomnia have been short-lived. Silly as it may sound, don’t use your bed for watching TV, doing paperwork, etc.  Get clutter out.  Make the room dark, there are so many "glowing" buttons on electronics these days. Leave the room and do something boring until you feel tired enough to sleep. A couple of sites with some useful info: http://www.aasmnet.org/disorderspub.htm http://www.healthysleeping.com/sleep/sleeping.asp

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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Benadryll is not great for the liver. According to who? Barbara Hirsch, Publisher OBESITY MEDS AND RESEARCH NEWS The latest in obesity research and weight loss drug development http://www.obesity-news.com/ According to several posts and references I read during the height of my chemical sensitivities. People on the MCS group were reporting regular use of benadryl to supress their many reacations when the information was sposted with references. The U.S. online Yahoo group folded a while ago and I no longer have access to their archives. The Canadian group is not very experienced technically. However this item seems to contra indicate same. Maybe I am just adverse to medication unless absolutely required. Benadryl does give good snooze. CLINICAL PHARMACOLOGY (no site shown on Google) Diphenhydramine HCl is an antihistamine with anticholinergic (drying) and sedative side effects. Antihistamines appear to compete with histamine for cell receptor sites on effector cells. Diphenhydramine is widely distributed throughout the body, including the CNS. Capsules and Elixir A single oral dose of diphenhydramine HCl is quickly absorbed with maximum activity occurring in approximately one hour. The duration of activity following an average dose of diphenhydramine HCl is from four to six hours. Little, if any, is excreted unchanged in the urine; most appears as the degradation products of metabolic transformation in the liver, which are almost completely excreted within 24 hours.

Just because the liver metabolizes something doesn’t mean that it is toxic to the liver.  In fact, I once took care of a precious little girl with a liver transplant.  She and the other wanna transplants about live on Benadryl for the itching caused by liver failure prior to getting new livers. It is often recommended for many patients with less than perfect livers or livers who are being taxed.  Many HIV drugs are metabolized by the liver causing great stress to the liver.  Benadryl is again prescribed to offset side effects of the meds including itching. I hate benadryl as it makes my left arm move of it’s own volition but most folks love it and have no long term problems at all unless they drive a car and die in their sleep:) j

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When my ex’s 7 yo DD was having trouble with her sleeping, the psyc. actually prescribed Benadryl as her sleep aid.  She knew at night that she was supposed to take her "little pink pill".  With other family members on Trazadone, Doxepin or Seraquil it was nice to see such a mellow effort for the little ones and she did sleep good.  :o) — ~Anji "Do not meddle in the affairs of cats, for they are subtle and will pee on your computer." –Bruce Graham

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Benedryl is what my gyn suggested when I complained of (probably menopause-related) insomnia last year. He said that the active ingredient is the same as OTC sleep aids and if you buy in bulk (bottle rather than blister pack) it’s way cheaper. Has the added advantage of keeping me from snuffling all night during allergy season. Ann

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Just because the liver metabolizes something doesn’t mean that it is toxic to the liver.  In fact, I once took care of a precious little girl with a liver transplant.  She and the other wanna transplants about live on Benadryl for the itching caused by liver failure prior to getting new livers.

Thanks for handling this one. I did a medline, couldn’t find anything that indicated benadryl or H1 histamine blockers in general, were hepatotoxic. There’s certainly no indication in the prescribing information. You can always find oddball patient reports, but that doesn’t make it true, or relevant to others. And if you are personally having a problem, then the best thing to do is not take that particular drug. That "left arm movement" thing must be one for the books. <G Barbara Hirsch, Publisher OBESITY MEDS AND RESEARCH NEWS The latest in obesity research and weight loss drug development http://www.obesity-news.com/

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The strength to keep on truckin'

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Dear Gandolf: I sometimes don’t know where I find the strength to keep on truckin’.  I’ve been hospitlized so many times I can’t even count them anymore. I just got out of the hospital last Monday and still feel miserable. As with others who have replied to your message, I have had two suicides in my family in the last year, within six months of each other, and have seen the devistation it has caused me and my family. I love my family too much to cause them anymore pain than they already have to deal with.  That is why I committed myself to the hospital last week. I was falling into the black hole of depression and felt suicidal. Sometimes it all seems like to much, trying to pull myself back up again and again.  But I know my family loves me so much and that is what I cling to. I hope and pray that you can find the strength to keep going. David

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Gandalf, I’m not in the same situation you are in, not at all; I’m not even bipolar, just depressive.  I do have experience with repeated emotional trauma which went on for years with one of my children, however; I imagine the emotional devastation is similar.  How to go on when you don’t feel like it, when you’d rather die, when you cannot do one damned thing to change the situation, when your hopes and dreams are dashed beyond repair and you’re being told to grieve those losses and then move on.  Not having the energy to move, period, let alone do anything that requires effort.  When there are no answers. I had to have support, a tremendous amount of support just to get through the day.  Therapy twice a week, three or four meetings a week, a phone list of caring people who would listen to me no matter what the hour, workshops, massage therapy every week, yoga, relaxation and guided meditation tapes, journalling for hours, walking in the woods, being grateful for any tiny beautiful thing I saw during the day, post-it notes of affirmations on the mirrors, door frames, my bed post, on my desk, in the kitchen, music with a form that was predictable–such as Mozart, for example–and limiting my contacts or even completely cutting myself off from any contact with toxic human beings, taking care of my dogs, cats, and later, birds.  Doing things with my hands, making things I could see, doing jobs improved my house, rearranging pretty things, creating some order in my home.  Baths, scented lotions, taking good physical care of myself. Just take baby steps, with lots of loving self-talk, and do many things you enjoy doing for yourself every day.  It’s when you want to live *for yourself* that you can know it’s worth doing, worth the effort. Let us hear from you and tell us more about how you’re doing, OK?  This is a good group, lots of opinions, creativity, courage, and information.  I’m glad you wrote. Warmly, Kathy

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time). My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode. Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. ~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time). My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode. Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. ~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time).

Sorry to hear you have been fighting this so long.  I understand about the manias and hospitals and all that all too well.  I wish you luck with the lithium.  I tried it but could not continue due to the side effects. My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode.

Well, I can only tell you what keeps me going and if you can apply it to your own life than great. My wife and kids love me and want me to be around.  Even when I feel like I’m not woth the effort, one of them comes along and helps me believe that I should feel good about myself for struggling as I have. I lost several members of my family to suicide.  If you want to know the main reason that I hold on…….It’s because I have felt and had to struggle with the pain of someone ending their life.  I think about what I would do to the people who love me and it helps me go on. This may cause you to think and maybe it will help you in some small way.  I hope you continue fighting and find reasons to continue your fight.  I know it’s hard.   Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment.

Keep fighting and keep that winning spirit.  Don’t listen to what it says.  Listen to the good things you KNOW are true about yourself. Let the truth win.  Tell the depression to go to hell. MM – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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Sorry to hear you have been fighting this so long.

Well still fighting this long beats the alternative (no longer fighting!) :) ) I wish you luck with the lithium.  I tried it but could not continue due to the side effects.

Last time I tried Lithium I gained 60 pounds (over 2.5 years) and had cognitive side effects. I saw a specialist (the top psychopharmacologist in my state) who said that Lithium causes slower metabolism (I didn’t increase my food intake when I gained the weight). So this time I’m going to be very careful about nutrition and exercise. Last time I was on it I was so extremely depressed I didn’t care that I was gaining weight. This time I do, let’s see if I can whip that particular side effect! If you want to know the main reason that I hold on…….It’s because I have felt and had to struggle with the pain of someone ending their life.  I think about what I would do to the people who love me and it helps me go on.

Relationships seem to be a big reason to stay here and suicide-deterrent. I too have lost friends to suicide, and they were ones who had been fighting the illness for many years. That is why I am concerned about myself — fighting suicidal thoughts seems to wear on someone after many years (Virginia Woolf and Hemingway finally threw in the towel). Thanks for the good words. ~ Gandalf

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I like your letter, Kay, and remember from early readings the two words that have helped me in so many different times—acceptance and gratitude.  Those ideas seem to be a theme in your letter and in those of some others in the newsgroup lately.  Not to go 12-step on you, but the Serenity Prayer is another quick and helpful resource. My best to your best, Kathy

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hey, Gandalf, It’s only been 13 years for me, so I may not be qualified to answer. But I hear you. I think getting up from the ring when this illness has us down does get harder over time. (Gee, there’s just the happy thought you were looking for.) But sometimes sitting in that truth, that reality is what I need to be kind to myself, and to let myself begin to hope for hope. I don’t always have hope. But I can hope that hope will arise. So far, for me, it has. I find it in a perfect blue sky, a just-right breeze, a piece of art, some little kids giggling in a park. Sounds hokey, but I’m serious. I have to find it outside of myself. And I figure if there are still these amazing moments around me, then I must be here to experience them for some reason. So many people get so hung up on questions of success, achievement, blahblah– I really figure that any day I get up and get dressed I am a friggin’ miracle. Anything else is gravy. So often hope comes for me only after I start practicing being grateful for the really small stuff. I believe in a Great Spirit out there, and that helps. So often the care and love of others feels like another burden to bear (see, I’m not out of this latest depression myself) but I seem to be able to manage seeking to know this Being. I pray, in my own way, and that helps me find strength, and meaning. And I need to hear from others, my doc in particular, that I am not always knocked out cold and bloody on the floor. Sometimes I just repeat that to myself, over and over, until I begin to believe it. It’s OK to just feel tired and beat up for a while. If you were just getting out of the hospital from having pneumonia, you probably wouldn’t be looking to run a marathon, or even a mile. Rest. Be gentle with yourself. This bp affliction didn’t get you this time, and likely won’t– you don’t want it to. That’s enough for now. Really. Hope will come in time, followed closely by courage and faith. Hope this helps, Kay

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time). My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode. Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. ~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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this may help,it can`t hurt-Blake is a great poet,one i admire for the price he paid to write lines like these:"The price of experience"- "What is the price of experience of experience?  Do man buy it for a song,or wisdom for a dance in the street?No.It is bought with the price of all that a man hath.Wisdom is sold in the desolate marketplace where tents of prosperity.Thus could i sing & thus rejoice,But it is not so with me,"Blake was familiar with (& illustrated)JOB,and it`s dealing with the fact of human suffering.Kurt Vonnegut once wrote that for one who lost a parent to suicide,that option was present at every difficulty.I never knew my father so suicide has been & always will be with me,but decades later the sorrow is still with so many people.So i would not impose what is more terrible than what we already know.My ten hospitalizations in ten years at one stretch,well,l just don`t believe it`s all for nothing.And i do believe people who endure this trouble in life have a      dignity and character,& wisdom,if just a little, most never have to know.i have never regretted finding this way to go.years ago i  would have said the road couldn`t go on this long,& what i`ve seen has made me sad,but it`s taught me kindness,& it`s getting lighter.             maybe what i said at least says you can go with the pains and the life that seems loaded.     you`re stronger than you once knew.HH             it`s all right to be strong enough to bend. mf this  ^r .Probabat   o

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Hey, Gandalf, It’s only been 13 years for me, so I may not be qualified to answer. But I hear you. I think getting up from the ring when this illness has us down does get harder over time. (Gee, there’s just the happy thought you were looking for.) But sometimes sitting in that truth, that reality is what I need to be kind to myself, and to let myself begin to hope for hope. I don’t always have hope. But I can hope that hope will arise. So far, for me, it has. I find it in a perfect blue sky, a just-right breeze, a piece of art, some little kids giggling in a park. Sounds hokey, but I’m serious. I have to find it outside of myself. And I figure if there are still these amazing moments around me, then I must be here to experience them for some reason. So many people get so hung up on questions of success, achievement, blahblah– I really figure that any day I get up and get dressed I am a friggin’ miracle. Anything else is gravy. So often hope comes for me only after I start practicing being grateful for the really small stuff. I believe in a Great Spirit out there, and that helps. So often the care and love of others feels like another burden to bear (see, I’m not out of this latest depression myself) but I seem to be able to manage seeking to know this Being. I pray, in my own way, and that helps me find strength, and meaning. And I need to hear from others, my doc in particular, that I am not always knocked out cold and bloody on the floor. Sometimes I just repeat that to myself, over and over, until I begin to believe it. It’s OK to just feel tired and beat up for a while. If you were just getting out of the hospital from having pneumonia, you probably wouldn’t be looking to run a marathon, or even a mile. Rest. Be gentle with yourself. This bp affliction didn’t get you this time, and likely won’t– you don’t want it to. That’s enough for now. Really. Hope will come in time, followed closely by courage and faith. Hope this helps, Kay   – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time). My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode. Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. ~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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The strength to keep on truckin'

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Dear Gandolf: I sometimes don’t know where I find the strength to keep on truckin’.  I’ve been hospitlized so many times I can’t even count them anymore. I just got out of the hospital last Monday and still feel miserable. As with others who have replied to your message, I have had two suicides in my family in the last year, within six months of each other, and have seen the devistation it has caused me and my family. I love my family too much to cause them anymore pain than they already have to deal with.  That is why I committed myself to the hospital last week. I was falling into the black hole of depression and felt suicidal. Sometimes it all seems like to much, trying to pull myself back up again and again.  But I know my family loves me so much and that is what I cling to. I hope and pray that you can find the strength to keep going. David

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Gandalf, I’m not in the same situation you are in, not at all; I’m not even bipolar, just depressive.  I do have experience with repeated emotional trauma which went on for years with one of my children, however; I imagine the emotional devastation is similar.  How to go on when you don’t feel like it, when you’d rather die, when you cannot do one damned thing to change the situation, when your hopes and dreams are dashed beyond repair and you’re being told to grieve those losses and then move on.  Not having the energy to move, period, let alone do anything that requires effort.  When there are no answers. I had to have support, a tremendous amount of support just to get through the day.  Therapy twice a week, three or four meetings a week, a phone list of caring people who would listen to me no matter what the hour, workshops, massage therapy every week, yoga, relaxation and guided meditation tapes, journalling for hours, walking in the woods, being grateful for any tiny beautiful thing I saw during the day, post-it notes of affirmations on the mirrors, door frames, my bed post, on my desk, in the kitchen, music with a form that was predictable–such as Mozart, for example–and limiting my contacts or even completely cutting myself off from any contact with toxic human beings, taking care of my dogs, cats, and later, birds.  Doing things with my hands, making things I could see, doing jobs improved my house, rearranging pretty things, creating some order in my home.  Baths, scented lotions, taking good physical care of myself. Just take baby steps, with lots of loving self-talk, and do many things you enjoy doing for yourself every day.  It’s when you want to live *for yourself* that you can know it’s worth doing, worth the effort. Let us hear from you and tell us more about how you’re doing, OK?  This is a good group, lots of opinions, creativity, courage, and information.  I’m glad you wrote. Warmly, Kathy

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time). My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode. Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. ~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time). My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode. Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. ~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time).

Sorry to hear you have been fighting this so long.  I understand about the manias and hospitals and all that all too well.  I wish you luck with the lithium.  I tried it but could not continue due to the side effects. My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode.

Well, I can only tell you what keeps me going and if you can apply it to your own life than great. My wife and kids love me and want me to be around.  Even when I feel like I’m not woth the effort, one of them comes along and helps me believe that I should feel good about myself for struggling as I have. I lost several members of my family to suicide.  If you want to know the main reason that I hold on…….It’s because I have felt and had to struggle with the pain of someone ending their life.  I think about what I would do to the people who love me and it helps me go on. This may cause you to think and maybe it will help you in some small way.  I hope you continue fighting and find reasons to continue your fight.  I know it’s hard.   Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment.

Keep fighting and keep that winning spirit.  Don’t listen to what it says.  Listen to the good things you KNOW are true about yourself. Let the truth win.  Tell the depression to go to hell. MM – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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I like your letter, Kay, and remember from early readings the two words that have helped me in so many different times—acceptance and gratitude.  Those ideas seem to be a theme in your letter and in those of some others in the newsgroup lately.  Not to go 12-step on you, but the Serenity Prayer is another quick and helpful resource. My best to your best, Kathy

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hey, Gandalf, It’s only been 13 years for me, so I may not be qualified to answer. But I hear you. I think getting up from the ring when this illness has us down does get harder over time. (Gee, there’s just the happy thought you were looking for.) But sometimes sitting in that truth, that reality is what I need to be kind to myself, and to let myself begin to hope for hope. I don’t always have hope. But I can hope that hope will arise. So far, for me, it has. I find it in a perfect blue sky, a just-right breeze, a piece of art, some little kids giggling in a park. Sounds hokey, but I’m serious. I have to find it outside of myself. And I figure if there are still these amazing moments around me, then I must be here to experience them for some reason. So many people get so hung up on questions of success, achievement, blahblah– I really figure that any day I get up and get dressed I am a friggin’ miracle. Anything else is gravy. So often hope comes for me only after I start practicing being grateful for the really small stuff. I believe in a Great Spirit out there, and that helps. So often the care and love of others feels like another burden to bear (see, I’m not out of this latest depression myself) but I seem to be able to manage seeking to know this Being. I pray, in my own way, and that helps me find strength, and meaning. And I need to hear from others, my doc in particular, that I am not always knocked out cold and bloody on the floor. Sometimes I just repeat that to myself, over and over, until I begin to believe it. It’s OK to just feel tired and beat up for a while. If you were just getting out of the hospital from having pneumonia, you probably wouldn’t be looking to run a marathon, or even a mile. Rest. Be gentle with yourself. This bp affliction didn’t get you this time, and likely won’t– you don’t want it to. That’s enough for now. Really. Hope will come in time, followed closely by courage and faith. Hope this helps, Kay

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time). My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode. Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. ~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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Hey, Gandalf, It’s only been 13 years for me, so I may not be qualified to answer. But I hear you. I think getting up from the ring when this illness has us down does get harder over time. (Gee, there’s just the happy thought you were looking for.) But sometimes sitting in that truth, that reality is what I need to be kind to myself, and to let myself begin to hope for hope. I don’t always have hope. But I can hope that hope will arise. So far, for me, it has. I find it in a perfect blue sky, a just-right breeze, a piece of art, some little kids giggling in a park. Sounds hokey, but I’m serious. I have to find it outside of myself. And I figure if there are still these amazing moments around me, then I must be here to experience them for some reason. So many people get so hung up on questions of success, achievement, blahblah– I really figure that any day I get up and get dressed I am a friggin’ miracle. Anything else is gravy. So often hope comes for me only after I start practicing being grateful for the really small stuff. I believe in a Great Spirit out there, and that helps. So often the care and love of others feels like another burden to bear (see, I’m not out of this latest depression myself) but I seem to be able to manage seeking to know this Being. I pray, in my own way, and that helps me find strength, and meaning. And I need to hear from others, my doc in particular, that I am not always knocked out cold and bloody on the floor. Sometimes I just repeat that to myself, over and over, until I begin to believe it. It’s OK to just feel tired and beat up for a while. If you were just getting out of the hospital from having pneumonia, you probably wouldn’t be looking to run a marathon, or even a mile. Rest. Be gentle with yourself. This bp affliction didn’t get you this time, and likely won’t– you don’t want it to. That’s enough for now. Really. Hope will come in time, followed closely by courage and faith. Hope this helps, Kay   – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time). My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode. Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. ~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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"Scent of a woman"

I found this great quote (seen it before but it’s still great) somewhere in this,    "The remarkable thing is not that the bear dances badly, but that the bear dances at all." I don’t believe it’s really possible to dance nimbly with manic-depression, but the fact that we can dance with it and that we can keep on dancing with it is the point. Yesterday I had a helpful thought about this — if I don’t think about this as "Oh my God, I’ve got to recuperate from my 10th hospitalization (sigh)," and instead think of this as "OK, I’ve just been released from the hospital, and I know a lot about putting my life back together after it’s been turned upside down," that is a much better point of view. ~ Gandalf I called the Alamo Ranch Sanitorium and was connected with Dr. Whillans. I said, "’Canst thou not minister to a mind diseas’d; pluck from memory a rooted sorrow …" There was a silence.  "I forget what comes next, Theodore.  I’ll look it up." "Hi, Doc." "Theodore, how are you?" . "I’m okay," I said. "Fine, fine, glad to hear it.  Really?" "I’m all right.  But I’m very tired.  It becomes harder each day to make the required gestures." "Yes, yes, God, I know." "Hypocrisy is hard work." . "Actually," I said, "I am having a problem.  I thought I’d maybe come to see you." "Have you been taking your medicine, Theodore?" "Yes.  I forget sometimes, though." "Don’t forget.  Are you drinking?" "A little." "How little?" "A little too much." "Theodore, you and alcohol are like gasoline and a match.  Have you been getting plenty of rest?" "I don’t sleep well." "There was a considerable pause.  "What can I tell you?  Take your medicine on schedule.  Don’t drink.  Get plenty of rest.  And cultivate your inhibitions." "Right." (Fugitive Moon, Ron Faust)

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Sorry to hear you have been fighting this so long.

Well still fighting this long beats the alternative (no longer fighting!) :) ) I wish you luck with the lithium.  I tried it but could not continue due to the side effects.

Last time I tried Lithium I gained 60 pounds (over 2.5 years) and had cognitive side effects. I saw a specialist (the top psychopharmacologist in my state) who said that Lithium causes slower metabolism (I didn’t increase my food intake when I gained the weight). So this time I’m going to be very careful about nutrition and exercise. Last time I was on it I was so extremely depressed I didn’t care that I was gaining weight. This time I do, let’s see if I can whip that particular side effect! If you want to know the main reason that I hold on…….It’s because I have felt and had to struggle with the pain of someone ending their life.  I think about what I would do to the people who love me and it helps me go on.

Relationships seem to be a big reason to stay here and suicide-deterrent. I too have lost friends to suicide, and they were ones who had been fighting the illness for many years. That is why I am concerned about myself — fighting suicidal thoughts seems to wear on someone after many years (Virginia Woolf and Hemingway finally threw in the towel). Thanks for the good words. ~ Gandalf

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The strength to keep on truckin'

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I like your letter, Kay, and remember from early readings the two words that have helped me in so many different times—acceptance and gratitude.  Those ideas seem to be a theme in your letter and in those of some others in the newsgroup lately.  Not to go 12-step on you, but the Serenity Prayer is another quick and helpful resource. My best to your best, Kathy

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hey, Gandalf, It’s only been 13 years for me, so I may not be qualified to answer. But I hear you. I think getting up from the ring when this illness has us down does get harder over time. (Gee, there’s just the happy thought you were looking for.) But sometimes sitting in that truth, that reality is what I need to be kind to myself, and to let myself begin to hope for hope. I don’t always have hope. But I can hope that hope will arise. So far, for me, it has. I find it in a perfect blue sky, a just-right breeze, a piece of art, some little kids giggling in a park. Sounds hokey, but I’m serious. I have to find it outside of myself. And I figure if there are still these amazing moments around me, then I must be here to experience them for some reason. So many people get so hung up on questions of success, achievement, blahblah– I really figure that any day I get up and get dressed I am a friggin’ miracle. Anything else is gravy. So often hope comes for me only after I start practicing being grateful for the really small stuff. I believe in a Great Spirit out there, and that helps. So often the care and love of others feels like another burden to bear (see, I’m not out of this latest depression myself) but I seem to be able to manage seeking to know this Being. I pray, in my own way, and that helps me find strength, and meaning. And I need to hear from others, my doc in particular, that I am not always knocked out cold and bloody on the floor. Sometimes I just repeat that to myself, over and over, until I begin to believe it. It’s OK to just feel tired and beat up for a while. If you were just getting out of the hospital from having pneumonia, you probably wouldn’t be looking to run a marathon, or even a mile. Rest. Be gentle with yourself. This bp affliction didn’t get you this time, and likely won’t– you don’t want it to. That’s enough for now. Really. Hope will come in time, followed closely by courage and faith. Hope this helps, Kay

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time). My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode. Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. ~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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Hey, Gandalf, It’s only been 13 years for me, so I may not be qualified to answer. But I hear you. I think getting up from the ring when this illness has us down does get harder over time. (Gee, there’s just the happy thought you were looking for.) But sometimes sitting in that truth, that reality is what I need to be kind to myself, and to let myself begin to hope for hope. I don’t always have hope. But I can hope that hope will arise. So far, for me, it has. I find it in a perfect blue sky, a just-right breeze, a piece of art, some little kids giggling in a park. Sounds hokey, but I’m serious. I have to find it outside of myself. And I figure if there are still these amazing moments around me, then I must be here to experience them for some reason. So many people get so hung up on questions of success, achievement, blahblah– I really figure that any day I get up and get dressed I am a friggin’ miracle. Anything else is gravy. So often hope comes for me only after I start practicing being grateful for the really small stuff. I believe in a Great Spirit out there, and that helps. So often the care and love of others feels like another burden to bear (see, I’m not out of this latest depression myself) but I seem to be able to manage seeking to know this Being. I pray, in my own way, and that helps me find strength, and meaning. And I need to hear from others, my doc in particular, that I am not always knocked out cold and bloody on the floor. Sometimes I just repeat that to myself, over and over, until I begin to believe it. It’s OK to just feel tired and beat up for a while. If you were just getting out of the hospital from having pneumonia, you probably wouldn’t be looking to run a marathon, or even a mile. Rest. Be gentle with yourself. This bp affliction didn’t get you this time, and likely won’t– you don’t want it to. That’s enough for now. Really. Hope will come in time, followed closely by courage and faith. Hope this helps, Kay   – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time). My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode. Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. ~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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Gandalf, I’m not in the same situation you are in, not at all; I’m not even bipolar, just depressive.  I do have experience with repeated emotional trauma which went on for years with one of my children, however; I imagine the emotional devastation is similar.  How to go on when you don’t feel like it, when you’d rather die, when you cannot do one damned thing to change the situation, when your hopes and dreams are dashed beyond repair and you’re being told to grieve those losses and then move on.  Not having the energy to move, period, let alone do anything that requires effort.  When there are no answers. I had to have support, a tremendous amount of support just to get through the day.  Therapy twice a week, three or four meetings a week, a phone list of caring people who would listen to me no matter what the hour, workshops, massage therapy every week, yoga, relaxation and guided meditation tapes, journalling for hours, walking in the woods, being grateful for any tiny beautiful thing I saw during the day, post-it notes of affirmations on the mirrors, door frames, my bed post, on my desk, in the kitchen, music with a form that was predictable–such as Mozart, for example–and limiting my contacts or even completely cutting myself off from any contact with toxic human beings, taking care of my dogs, cats, and later, birds.  Doing things with my hands, making things I could see, doing jobs improved my house, rearranging pretty things, creating some order in my home.  Baths, scented lotions, taking good physical care of myself. Just take baby steps, with lots of loving self-talk, and do many things you enjoy doing for yourself every day.  It’s when you want to live *for yourself* that you can know it’s worth doing, worth the effort. Let us hear from you and tell us more about how you’re doing, OK?  This is a good group, lots of opinions, creativity, courage, and information.  I’m glad you wrote. Warmly, Kathy

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time). My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode. Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. ~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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Dear Gandolf: I sometimes don’t know where I find the strength to keep on truckin’.  I’ve been hospitlized so many times I can’t even count them anymore. I just got out of the hospital last Monday and still feel miserable. As with others who have replied to your message, I have had two suicides in my family in the last year, within six months of each other, and have seen the devistation it has caused me and my family. I love my family too much to cause them anymore pain than they already have to deal with.  That is why I committed myself to the hospital last week. I was falling into the black hole of depression and felt suicidal. Sometimes it all seems like to much, trying to pull myself back up again and again.  But I know my family loves me so much and that is what I cling to. I hope and pray that you can find the strength to keep going. David

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I don’t know where the strength comes from to keep going.  The depression keeps slamming me over and over.  I have never been hospitalized only because I refuse to go and hubby won’t commit me.  He has already told me recently that will not commit me unless I am half-dead—not sure what that means been there done that and he didn’t take me then either even at the insistance of my therapist. I wish I knew what makes us go forward through each new wave.  Somehow we do it though don’t we??  Gosh I think I just made myself depressed again. I have been through all the manias and psychotics breaks and od’s and hysterics—but the depressions are the worst and the things that are the hardest to manuever through. And here we are. I guess there are simply no words to describe it and nothing to really pinpoint why we are still here to tell our stories. and hopefully for the next day too… Becky "I have seen the sea when it is stormy and wild; when it is quiet and serene; when it is dark and moody. And in all its moods, I see myself."      -Martin Buxbaum

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snip That is why I am concerned about myself — fighting suicidal thoughts seems to wear on someone after many years (Virginia Woolf and Hemingway finally threw in the towel).

Sir Winston Churchill didn’t though.  Survival is possible. — —  Whiskers

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Sorry to hear you have been fighting this so long.

Well still fighting this long beats the alternative (no longer fighting!) :) ) I wish you luck with the lithium.  I tried it but could not continue due to the side effects.

Last time I tried Lithium I gained 60 pounds (over 2.5 years) and had cognitive side effects. I saw a specialist (the top psychopharmacologist in my state) who said that Lithium causes slower metabolism (I didn’t increase my food intake when I gained the weight). So this time I’m going to be very careful about nutrition and exercise. Last time I was on it I was so extremely depressed I didn’t care that I was gaining weight. This time I do, let’s see if I can whip that particular side effect! If you want to know the main reason that I hold on…….It’s because I have felt and had to struggle with the pain of someone ending their life.  I think about what I would do to the people who love me and it helps me go on.

Relationships seem to be a big reason to stay here and suicide-deterrent. I too have lost friends to suicide, and they were ones who had been fighting the illness for many years. That is why I am concerned about myself — fighting suicidal thoughts seems to wear on someone after many years (Virginia Woolf and Hemingway finally threw in the towel). Thanks for the good words. ~ Gandalf

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Thanks Whiskers Human contact is one of the things that makes everything worthwhile, even e-contact. ~ Gandalf

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – snip Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. Hello Gandalf :) ) My own experience has been a lot less spectacular than yours, I don’t seem to have any mania – just a continuous varying ‘low’ – so I can’t really offer advice from my own experience – but I do want you to know I’ve read your article and will try to be supportive if I can. — —  Whiskers

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snip Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment.

Hello Gandalf :) ) My own experience has been a lot less spectacular than yours, I don’t seem to have any mania – just a continuous varying ‘low’ – so I can’t really offer advice from my own experience – but I do want you to know I’ve read your article and will try to be supportive if I can. — —  Whiskers

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Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time).

Sorry to hear you have been fighting this so long.  I understand about the manias and hospitals and all that all too well.  I wish you luck with the lithium.  I tried it but could not continue due to the side effects. My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode.

Well, I can only tell you what keeps me going and if you can apply it to your own life than great. My wife and kids love me and want me to be around.  Even when I feel like I’m not woth the effort, one of them comes along and helps me believe that I should feel good about myself for struggling as I have. I lost several members of my family to suicide.  If you want to know the main reason that I hold on…….It’s because I have felt and had to struggle with the pain of someone ending their life.  I think about what I would do to the people who love me and it helps me go on. This may cause you to think and maybe it will help you in some small way.  I hope you continue fighting and find reasons to continue your fight.  I know it’s hard.   Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment.

Keep fighting and keep that winning spirit.  Don’t listen to what it says.  Listen to the good things you KNOW are true about yourself. Let the truth win.  Tell the depression to go to hell. MM – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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Hello all, It has been 28 years now since I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder. Over the years I have had my share of manias, depressions, and hospitalizations. I’ve tried many many different drugs, doctors, non-drug treatments, you name it (some of them actually work!). And like many of us, I’m extremely educated about my disorder — we become more educated than the pdocs after not so many years at this. I’m also relatively happy with my treatment, care, and our new direction (trying Lithium AGAIN, hoping that I can live with the side effects this time). My question is this. For those of you out there that have been in the trenches for a long time and have more than your share of purple hearts fighting your illness, how do you gather up your strength and courage to "go at it again" after yet another episode/hospitalization? I’m not talking about pollyanna stuff, and I’m not talking about getting up off the floor after only your 2nd or 3rd episode. I’m asking what you do for yourself when you are bone weary fighting the illness. For me this was the 9th or 10th hospitalization (I lost track a while back) and umpteenth episode. Thanks in advance for all suggestions and feedback. I need courage and hope more than drugs or doctors at the moment, and it is damned hard to dredge that up when you’re fighting off your umpteenth depression. I will NOT let the damned illness win, but it is getting in some serious blows to my midriff at the moment. ~ Gandalf "I will not let you go, unless you bless me." -Jacob

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Cronic 8 week old Migraine

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I am sorry your daughter is having so much pain. I have a fused back and have had 10 knee operations, concluding in a replacement. I have severe continual migraines. I can’t say that I can find a correlation between the two. Please find the nearest Pain clinic and have your daughter evaluated, she is too young to have to deal with such a bad headache. Her other symptoms are not unusual, severe headaches can manifest themselves in unusual ways. Peace, Bob

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Matt: About the screws in the kneecap. I broke mine about 3 years ago and had 2 screws in it for a year and they took them out. Then a year ago this past Dec. I had my kneecap taken out. I didn’t have any unusual Migraines. I would suggest that you take your daughter to a headache specialist to see what is causing the problem. BBOOTH

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Hello everyone. My 16 year old daughter has now had a constant headache for 8 weeks now. The last 3 weeks her neck and shoulder area is very stiff and she has 2 areas on her body that are very sensitive, likes pins and needles, if you touch them. She also has blurred vision and a spot in one eye..this gets worse at night. She as been on amitripolene and this has helped her cope with it. She had a knee operation last year, where she had to have 2 screws in her tibia. we dont know if this has anything to do with the migraine at hand. She got the screws out 3 weeks before getting the headache. I am looking for any help that you can give…Thank you very much Matt

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Nance writes…Wow, I find this kind of interesting!  I wonder if there could

be some correlation between anesthesia use and migraines, as mine did not start until I had arthroscopic surgery on my knee in 1977.  That was my first experience with anesthesia, and I was very sick from it!  My migraines became regular and intense after that.  Just food for thought!

I’ve been having migraines since 1966 but they always get very intense and much more frequent after I’ve had an anesthetic.  I need to have a procedure done on my esophagus next week and I’m dreading it…not because of the procedure but because I can count on being in excruciating pain the next day…and possibly several after that. I’m sorry for your daughter’s pain…I pray all the time that my three girls don’t inherit my headaches…my mom and grandma both had them. Tweety

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I am not sure if this helps but has this operation affected the length of one of your daughters legs. I have one leg very slightly shorter than the other and this causes neck problems. This can cause tension in the neck and shoulder muscles that affects blood flow to the head. This has caused me problems for years. I find that about once a year three of four sessions with my physio to loosen the neck muscles works for me. Plus I do various yoga relaxation exercises. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello everyone. My 16 year old daughter has now had a constant headache for 8 weeks now. The last 3 weeks her neck and shoulder area is very stiff and she has 2 areas on her body that are very sensitive, likes pins and needles, if you touch them. She also has blurred vision and a spot in one eye..this gets worse at night. She as been on amitripolene and this has helped her cope with it. She had a knee operation last year, where she had to have 2 screws in her tibia. we dont know if this has anything to do with the migraine at hand. She got the screws out 3 weeks before getting the headache. I am looking for any help that you can give…Thank you very much Matt

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Wow, I find this kind of interesting!  I wonder if there could be some correlation between anesthesia use and migraines, as mine did not start until I had arthroscopic surgery on my knee in 1977.  That was my first experience with anesthesia, and I was very sick from it!  My migraines became regular and intense after that.  Just food for thought!  Best of luck to your daughter, Robert.  I’d get her to a neurologist:) NanceT.

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I am sorry your daughter is having so much pain. I have a fused back and have had 10 knee operations, concluding in a replacement. I have severe continual migraines. I can’t say that I can find a correlation between the two. Please find the nearest Pain clinic and have your daughter evaluated, she is too young to have to deal with such a bad headache. Her other symptoms are not unusual, severe headaches can manifest themselves in unusual ways. Peace, Bob

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Shoul I Try Yoga

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The August 2000 issue of Yoga Journal cover story is "How Yoga Saved my Life."  The first story is from a woman who almost lost her leg in a horrible accident.  Her well respected orthopedists prepared her for life as an amputee.  Instead, she sought treatment including a mostly organic and vegetarian diet, meditation, acupuncture, Sikh chiropractor, and supplements to support her immune system.  She says, "Most of all, I did yoga every day, even if it was just a simple spinal flex.  In class when others when in [postures] I could not do, [my teacher] told me to hold the posture in my head, mentally going through it." Not only did her leg not wither off, as predicted by allopathy, but the bone re-knitted and while she walks with a slight limp, she can dance and ride. — Diva "Success is Planned"

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Hey Dave, if kundalini yoga is your thing maybe you know something about an instructional video I bought alittle while ago? "kundalini Yoga: a complete course for beginners" was apparently  broadcast as part of an accredited course at the university of alaska, anchorage, and features an absolutely delightful little man in white jammies and a long beard.  Anyone have any input as to its quality?  Buckets?   Bouquets? Del

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Yoga is fantastic. The yoga in the article may have been a variety called "kundalini yoga", which is a wonderful combination of simple postures, breathing and meditation.. Try it, you’ll like it! Dave

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Yoga is fantastic. The yoga in the article may have been a variety called "kundalini yoga", which is a wonderful combination of simple postures, breathing and meditation.. Try it, you’ll like it! Dave

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And the world continues to turn in smaller and smaller circles…… Do you think a new-grouping relationship counts as a 6 degrees of separation kind of thing? Thanks for the reccomendation – I had a feeling from watching one of his tapes that he knew what he was doing. : ) Del

– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Yes, I know this guy, we spent time together in Anchorage a few years ago. He’s known as the "Alaskan Yogi", and is a sweet knowledgeable guy, I recommend his videos highly.. Dave Frank

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Yes, I know this guy, we spent time together in Anchorage a few years ago. He’s known as the "Alaskan Yogi", and is a sweet knowledgeable guy, I recommend his videos highly.. Dave Frank

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I made it all the way through my Yoga relaxation tape from Yoga Journal this a.m. and  haven’t been so relaxed since I lit a cigarette and ordered a pizza on my honeymoon.  (don’t do any of that anymore as the honeymoon is over) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hey Dave, if kundalini yoga is your thing maybe you know something about an instructional video I bought alittle while ago? "kundalini Yoga: a complete course for beginners" was apparently  broadcast as part of an accredited course at the university of alaska, anchorage, and features an absolutely delightful little man in white jammies and a long beard.  Anyone have any input as to its quality?  Buckets?   Bouquets? Del Yoga is fantastic. The yoga in the article may have been a variety called "kundalini yoga", which is a wonderful combination of simple postures, breathing and meditation.. Try it, you’ll like it! Dave

– Diva "Success is Planned"

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elavil and lithium

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i have bipolar illness and fibromyalgia chronic pain. i take lithium and elavil. recently i have had a lot of pain and the elavil was increased. instead of getting more antidepressant effects, i became more psychotic and depressed. can anyone help me find a better combo for my diseases/

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i have bipolar illness and fibromyalgia chronic pain. i take lithium and elavil. recently i have had a lot of pain and the elavil was increased. instead of getting more antidepressant effects, i became more psychotic and depressed. can anyone help me find a better combo for my diseases/

Hi Dennis, Welcome to ASDM. Have you told your doctor about the effect of the increase in Elavil? Elavil is a tricyclic AD…there are other classes that may be more effective for you such as the SSRI’s, SNRIs, NARIs, MAOIs, RIMAs, Atypical ADs…perhaps you can discuss these other options with your doctor. It is important that he/she is aware that your depression has increased…and that you describe your psychotic symptoms in detail. As for the FBS all I can suggest is that you read about this disorder and gain as much information as you can…then you will be able to bring the information to your doctor and weigh the benefits vs risks of the various medications. I have Multiple Sclerosis, Osteoporosis, and FBS…what helps me the most is daily exercise and weekly acupuncture and massage (acupressure mixed with some Trager and Swedish) treatments. BUT everyone is different…I did try many other treatment modalities in my search to find something that worked for me. I still have pain but it is much more manageable now. Graded aerobic exercise, Yoga, Relaxation Techniques,  have also proven beneficial for some people who have FMS. I have listed many resources for you to explore. Sorry if I got carried away…I don’t mean to overwhelme you…I guess  I belive that knowledge is power. Please email me anytime if you have any questions. I hope you find the most effective treatment for both of your conditions. Please do not give up hope. Know that others are also going through similar experiences and they have found more effective ways of coping and living with their disorders. Peace, Lynda The link below describes various coping strategies for FMS: Go to the site and click on any topic of interest to you: http://chronicfatigue.about.com/health/chronicfatigue/cs/copingstrategie s/index.htm While there is currently no cure for Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS) and Fibromyalgia (FMS), one of the most effective ways of managing symptoms is through lifestyle change. A variety of coping strategies can be helpful in dealing with CFS/FMS. Here’s a list of excellent resources to help you cope with your illness on a daily basis. Advice to a New Patient From a group of sufferers themselves, Bruce Campbell provides this list of the most important things to remember in coping with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome or Fibromyalgia. Chat w/ Bruce Campbell Read the transcript of a chat with Bruce Campbell, Ph.D., a psychologist who created a self-help course for CFS. Chat with Susan Milstrey Wells A chat on coping with chronic illness with Susan Milstrey Wells, author of the book, A Delicate Balance: Living Successfully with Chronic Illness. Crisis Line Listings About.com’s Guide to Depression provides these listings for US, Canadian, and International hotlines. Don’t Worry, Be Happy? Managing the symptoms of CFS/FMS requires more than just positive thinking.

Treatment in New Orleans?

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hey katie river oaks hospital. its about a mile from where i live , right near elmwood fitness center and the palace theater bordering harahan and river ridge. i definitely recommend it over depauls.  depauls is high high  behavior modification.  river oaks has two ed tracks.  one just ed, thte other ed and trauma combined.  they use a lot of experiential therapies, such as art therapy, yoga, relaxation, tai chi, dance therapy etc.  they take private insurance, private pay, and medicare.  they also have partial treatment(day) . full inpatient is 1300 , partial is 650 a day.  the number is 733-CARE  dont know if that is 1800 or if its area code 504.  our lady of the lake;s tau center in baton rouge also still holds an ed program.  i know dr. barnes is the medical physician in charge, not sure about the psych and social worker.  they also take medicare and insurance ALso what does anyone or you, Shell know about the state institutions like Mandeville?  Any other hospitials out there?

they dont take ed’s period anymore.  the state hospital here, mandeville, is mainly a medication stabilization at this point for cases such as shizophrenia etc.  there is also no therapy . you woudl be better off going into a general hospital with a psych unit , most take medicaid also, such as east jefferson hospital, kenner regional memorial, methodist psych.  i hear methodist is actually really good.  none of these have ed programs but they do have experience cause i know people who have been through the programs with eds and said it was helpful.   especially methodist psych pavillion are you still in baton rouge katie or have you gone back to school? hugs shell

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Shell, I know you have told me about a place other than DePaul.  I can’t remember.  ALso what does anyone or you, Shell know about the state institutions like Mandeville?  Any other hospitials out there? Thanks Katie

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i’ve heard of horrid stories of methodist in minnesota….a friend of mine, judy sargent (she wrote a book) was there several times…and i believe so was marya hornbacher… i was in a methodist in another state several times….that name…..grrrrrrrr lol smurfette                              "death is not the greatest loss in life,                the greatest loss is what dies inside of us while we’re alive"                                                        -oliver wendell holmes

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Hey Katie, I go to Methodist Hospital, and I really like it or as much as I can like it….However I am in Minesotta.. ((hugs to all)) Kim Shell, I know you have told me about a place other than DePaul.  I can’t remember.  ALso what does anyone or you, Shell know about the state institutions like Mandeville?  Any other hospitials out there? Thanks Katie

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About "hyperacusis 100 x worse than tinnitus"

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Judy Gillen <gil…@ihug.co.nz

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Hi Judy,

The day is windy and hot (wer’e in summer-autumn here in New Zealand…and I wonder if that’s something to do with it…the rain (when it comes!) takes the bass noise to the ground, and not through walls as much!

Wind and rain are noises…

Yes, earplugs are needed there too…

I have not that much hyperacusis, but… have you already tried white noise? Perhaps white noise can help you a bit. I for my part have noisers as an add-device to my hearing-aids. And I found with noisers on, crazy sounds seems to become a bit milder. All night in my room the radio is running, all night. Last time when having been in the hospital I did not want to disturb the other patients with my radio, so I bought a very small portable radio (even smaller than a walkman), and I bought earphones for walkers and skaters (used like hearing-aids behind the ears) for sleeping. I was able to sleep. And the radio you can run "between" 2 stations, that’s similar to white noise, especially on AM. Perhaps you should give this version a try. regards from Germany in springtime… ;-) Juergen

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Judy, And I always thought of New Zealand as quiet (in my own ignorant way!). Yes, my relatives and friends don’t really want to know how bad things are when they ask "How’s your hearing?"  They want me to be cured miraculously or just stop jumping whenever somebody crinkles a piece of cellophane! By any chance do you have allergies?  I’ve just discovered I have allergies, and they might have contributed to my hearing loss.  When it’s windy, not only do my allergy symptoms increase, but my tinnitus and hyperacusis (or recruitment) seem to increase too.  Or perhaps it’s just because I’m in a lousy mood because breathing is harder due to the allergies.  But since you mentioned wind… The good thing to come out of this is I no longer have to vacuum, since that sound now drives both me AND the dog nuts.   Sorry you’re having such noise problems.  While it’s comforting to know there are others suffering as I am, I’d feel better if nobody else had to be going through what I’m going through.  I’ll think of you whenever I watch "Skippy" on TV!  I assume they showed that in New Zealand, since it’s an Australian show — the only one we get in the U. S! Andrew Gulliver – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -

The day is windy and hot (wer’e in summer-autumn here in New Zealand…and I wonder if that’s something to do with it…the rain (when it comes!) takes the bass noise to the ground, and not through walls as much! You forgot to mention church!! Yes, earplugs are needed there too…the bands can be pretty tinnitus antagonists! I heard the other day that somebody with this actually is moving house, and living in a bus!! So they can move on, wif someone plays their stereo or is too loud.. Now there’s an idea!(g) Anyway…glad to hear I’m not alone! Must go..someone has started up a chainsaw!!! grrrrhhhhhh!!! Peace to you!(s) JudyG. New Zealand Andrew Gulliver wrote in message <38D73B6A.56F00…@hotmail.com… I developed tinnitus and hyperacusis recently, and the cause had nothing to do with loud noises.er mentioned a single word about hyperacusis.  I described my inability to bear high-pitched sounds (water, paper crinkling, plastic wrap, computer beeps etc.) without reaching for my ears, or loud noises (vacuums, driving, music, too many people talking at once), and at no time did any of the three doctors mention hyperacusis.  They had huge pamphlets about tinnitus and every other ear disorder, but not a single word about that.  In fact, I had no idea I had the illness/infirmity/disease? until I discovered this newsgroup and saw the subject of "hyperacusis 100 x worse than tinnitus."  Before I even clicked on the first posting, I knew that that must be what I have, because it is at LEAST 100 times worse, as I have been mostly housebound for the last month-and-a-half due to my lack of tolerance for the noisy everyday world.

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This place sounds deserted. Should I close the door on the way out? I posted a bit on Deja a year or so ago, but I wasn’t doing it properly and this Dr. Nagler bawled me out about it. It’s a year later and nothing has changed, there is no fix, the h and t are worse, there is no plateau. From time to time, if I am very involved with something the t will lessen, but the h really is a bitch. If someone finds a way to decrease the h to a point where the water from a shower does not sound explosively distorted when it hits your head, please let me know. I’ll close the door here. * Sent from RemarQ http://www.remarq.com The Internet’s Discussion Network * The fastest and easiest way to search and participate in Usenet – Free!

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mi…@aol.com (Milo7) wrote:

x-no-archive:yes Neurontin significantly helps subdue the hyperacusis. What is neurontin?

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My ear doctor recommended Dilantin as possibly helping with my hyperacusis.  It’s also an antiseizure medication.  Does anybody know whether this has ever been used to successfully treat hyperacusis?   I agree with LtlPhysics that the hyperacusis is quite awful.  The sound of birds singing and children laughing is equally unbearable, not to mention plastic grocery bags, aluminum foil, and any kind of silverware or dish noises.  I’ve read lots of claims that TRT helps hyperacusis, but the success stories seem to be unable to access a computer, as their success stories are practically nonexistent.  Any cured hyperacusis sufferers out there? – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Milo7 wrote:

x-no-archive:yes Neurontin (gabapentin) is an anticonvulsant/antiseizure med manufactured by Parke Davis.

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Yes, dilantin helps. It was one of the first drugs that the shrinks tried out on me. At that time they were certain that the right medication would return me to life. This was a long time ago and my tinnitus and hyperacusis were relatively benign. I misread the dosage and doubled it the first time I took it. The affect was great, all of that noise backed away from me, it was almost visual. I slept a bit and felt very pacified as I moved around. I could see how this would calm the mind and help prevent seizures. I did not feel disabled by it in any way, it was all a positive experience. But I had taken a double dose and a normal dose was not as dramatic. The drug also has some nasty side effects and a sustainable high dosage was not considered possible. As I recall, a blood test was necessary to establish the allowable dosage. Given the choice, I would dilantin for the day and find another means of inducing sleep at night. It is no cure and when it wears off you can hear all of those sounds snap back or increase in volume. I had probably less than a hundred distinct sounds that were recognizable to me at that time. Now they are uncountable. Do you hear music, yet? * Sent from RemarQ http://www.remarq.com The Internet’s Discussion Network * The fastest and easiest way to search and participate in Usenet – Free!

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I also have over-sensitive hearing (hyper-acusis), and it is a terrible handicap in the world! Everyone thinks you are being disagreeable. It is a struggle to shop in stores with background music etc. (I have some tinintus also, but it is not a problem.) I’d love to hear suggestions to improve any of the things I’m trying already. (Or new approaches.) I think one reason for the hyper-acusis is that my ears do not produce much wax. I just checked a few pharmacies and health food sources, and no one seems to make a supplemental ear wax product. On the advice of an MD ear specialist, I often experiment with homemade ear-wax substitutes, and find them VERY helpful! The ears feel better, the sound goes to a comfortable level (like in a quiet snowfall), I feel the muscles readjust. The problem is that it is not possible to get the substitute out or adjust the amount — I use very soft oily materials — and so I end up unable to hear when I do want to! So I’m now trying, along with the wax substitute, a $30 "Amplified Listener" device from Radio Shack. This is a little microphone that fits in a pocket and amplifies whatever you point it at, and sends it through earphones. Looks like a Walkman or MP3 player. This is helpful because it is directional: can point it at ones dinner companion and not get background music. Also it can be turned off or adjusted easily — controls on the pocket thingy. (I think it amplifies close sounds more than far-off ones, so not so much background stuff comes through.) (Of course in the past I tried regular earplugs, even custom fitted ones, but they were uncomfortable and didn’t work well. The wax substitute is always comfortable and the earphones for the "Amplified Listener" can be taken out most of the time.) To make the wax substitute  removable (or try to!), I sometimes sandwich it with cotton. Start with a little cotton to keep the stuff from contacting the ear drum, then a layer of of the wax-subs, then more cotton to hold it in the ear. This works pretty well sometimes, but is messy and keeps needing to be renewed. I’ve found chiropractic treartments — especially ‘Cranial-Sacral Therapy’ — very helpful. Massage and Rolfing too. (And yoga.) I think it’s party a matter of the muscles and bones being out of allignment, which stretches the ear canal and ear drum out of shape. Sometimes it will completely clear up for a few minutes. As to causes, it got much worse after a throat-eustacian infection and an overseas jet flight. When I got off the plane in Thailand I thought they must have different mufflers on their cars, everything seemed so much louder. But when I returned, my home town sounded just as loud. For wax substitutes, the MD cautioned me to use only oil-based products. For convenience now I use an organic hair conditioner (thick lotion) and apply it with a large syringe (made for giving medicine to babies). In the past I tried mixing beeswax, parafin, etc. The problem is that wahtever I use eventually melts and coats the eardrum itself. This deadens all sound and I can’t remove it (wax removal drops don’t help). Haven’t tried Vaseline. Bass rhythms shaking the floor etc are a big problem for me too. One help is to use a Walkman or MP3 player with music I like: it gives a different rhythm to focus on. Radio Shack has some adaptors that can run both the "Amplified Listener" and the music source into the same earphones. (Another way is to have two sets of earphones and put the earphones from the music device next to the input of the "Amplified Listener".) I’m trying to increase the volume from the MP3 player. The "Ampliflied Listener" makes a nice white noise of its own, and the cloth of the pocket brushing against it gives a swishing sound when I walk, which gives me a focus on my own body rhythms. On Mon, 27 Mar 2000 14:12:02 +1200, "Judy Gillen" <gil…@ihug.co.nz

wrote: Hi Andrew, I sympathise with you!  You poor soul… The docs. don’t know what to do for hyperacusis…and your family gets sick of hearing about it.. I have bad hyperacusis today, and feel I am on my own in all this…when i complain about all the neighbours around here, with their stereos and the techno beat…am I unusual??

I certianly have the same problem.

Today is a bad day, because the bass noise penetrates the house, and you can’t get away from it…

It’s awful. I go nuts in such situations. Fill my ears with lotion, become quite deaf. For vibrations that come through the floor, look for problems around the tailbone and pelvis. Vibrations come through chairs or floor (carpets and cushions help), and anything wrong in that area of the body can make things worse. Tension or pressure near the tailbone stretches the cranial-sacral covering  tight as a drum….

As we live on a main road, everyone seems to have their car stereos on, with this bass beat…but at least they drive on, but when it’s the neighbours(and at least 4 of them!)…that’s another thing…there is no peace! The day is windy and hot (wer’e in summer-autumn here in New Zealand…and I wonder if that’s something to do with it…the rain (when it comes!) takes the bass noise to the ground, and not through walls as much! You forgot to mention church!! Yes, earplugs are needed there too…the bands can be pretty tinnitus antagonists! I heard the other day that somebody with this actually is moving house, and living in a bus!! So they can move on, wif someone plays their stereo or is too loud.. Now there’s an idea!(g)

It works. :-) Some motorhomes / travel trailers are very luxurious, too. There are a few campground owners who understand the problem and only accept quiet guests.

Anyway…glad to hear I’m not alone! Must go..someone has started up a chainsaw!!! grrrrhhhhhh!!! Peace to you!(s) JudyG. New Zealand Andrew Gulliver wrote in message <38D73B6A.56F00…@hotmail.com… I developed tinnitus and hyperacusis recently, and the cause had nothing to do with loud noises.er mentioned a single word about hyperacusis.  I described my inability to bear high-pitched sounds (water, paper crinkling, plastic wrap, computer beeps etc.) without reaching for my ears, or loud noises (vacuums, driving, music, too many people talking at once), and at no time did any of the three doctors mention hyperacusis.  

Fwiw, those aren’t my problems. It is the rhythm mostly. Unfortunately I can hear radios a block away, which others cannot.

They had huge pamphlets about tinnitus and every other ear disorder, but not a single word about that.  In fact, I had no idea I had the illness/infirmity/disease? until I discovered this newsgroup and saw the subject of "hyperacusis 100 x worse than tinnitus."  Before I even clicked on the first posting, I knew that that must be what I have, because it is at LEAST 100 times worse, as I have been mostly housebound for the last month-and-a-half due to my lack of tolerance for the noisy everyday world.

Yes. I’ve been wondering if it might be better to go ahead and keep the eardrums coated and accept the deafness.  It’s comfortable, and a socially-acceptable handicap might be easier to manage than one which no one believes! Mary

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High Flight wrote:

Robert E. Seletsky <mem…@sprintmail.com

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Then allow me to be harsh: this is a support group, not a boxing ring. You call that harsh?  You’re merely stating the obvious in a very mundane way. If you insist on being combattive, do it elsewhere. There are plenty of civil ways to disagree and you have chosen none of them. As we know (at least I hope you do), stress can worsen people’s T, so your ranting is completely counter-productive. Stress, as in getting stressed from reading my followups?  That’s -very- funny!  I’m not responsible for others’ stress management.  Some people will lose it when you say "BOO!" to them.  I’m starting to believe you’re one of them. Your guarantee of h abatement is what’s -really- counterproductive. Have a nice day!

——————– I think you are nuts! Is that harsh enough for you, since you think I wasn’t harsh enough earlier. I don’t believe in being crude and mean-spirited. And stress is the last thing I need or anyone else needs from reading posts in this particular group. You’re obviously "fixin’ for a fight," and I’m not; you are evidently a very angry, disturbed individual, and this will be my last reply to this absurd exchange. I never made a guarantee to anyone of anything; I just stated my own experience of four years and the assertions of experts who write here (Nagler, Johnson, Gold) in the hopes of giving some positive possibilities a fellow T/H sufferer. If you are so disturbed by this that you are willing to embarrass yourself here in a public forum with such raving, I am willing to emend my original post thus: The big T specialists–Nagler, Jastreboff (both in Atlanta), Marsha Johnson (Portland, OR), Susan Gold (Baltimore) [not in any order of preference]–all deal with H as well as T. They claim that the reduction of H is actually pretty fast compared to T habituation. Even with no treatment, it is possible that one may find improvement in H improves over not too long a time. Eventually it may be almost normal. In four years, my own personal experience has been that the really dramatic loud sounds still make me jump, but normal noise isn’t a problem, except that for me–as with many others who have reported it, louder sounds makes T perception worse. Happy? And by the way, when I write, I don’t think of myself as "cyberscribing". Do you think of yourself as "cyberfighting" with an unwilling opponent? You’re welcome to it. Good luck, Bob Seletsky

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Yeah, come on guys! You both post such helpful information all the time….. Let us let "writegones" be "writegones" Marlayna

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Hi Andrew, I sympathise with you!  You poor soul… The docs. don’t know what to do for hyperacusis…and your family gets sick of hearing about it.. I have bad hyperacusis today, and feel I am on my own in all this…when i complain about all the neighbours around here, with their stereos and the techno beat…am I unusual?? Today is a bad day, because the bass noise penetrates the house, and you can’t get away from it… As we live on a main road, everyone seems to have their car stereos on, with this bass beat…but at least they drive on, but when it’s the neighbours(and at least 4 of them!)…that’s another thing…there is no peace! The day is windy and hot (wer’e in summer-autumn here in New Zealand…and I wonder if that’s something to do with it…the rain (when it comes!) takes the bass noise to the ground, and not through walls as much! You forgot to mention church!! Yes, earplugs are needed there too…the bands can be pretty tinnitus antagonists! I heard the other day that somebody with this actually is moving house, and living in a bus!! So they can move on, wif someone plays their stereo or is too loud.. Now there’s an idea!(g) Anyway…glad to hear I’m not alone! Must go..someone has started up a chainsaw!!! grrrrhhhhhh!!! Peace to you!(s) JudyG. New Zealand – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Andrew Gulliver wrote in message <38D73B6A.56F00…@hotmail.com

… I developed tinnitus and hyperacusis recently, and the cause had nothing to do with loud noises.er mentioned a single word about hyperacusis.  I described my inability to bear high-pitched sounds (water, paper crinkling, plastic wrap, computer beeps etc.) without reaching for my ears, or loud noises (vacuums, driving, music, too many people talking at once), and at no time did any of the three doctors mention hyperacusis.  They had huge pamphlets about tinnitus and every other ear disorder, but not a single word about that.  In fact, I had no idea I had the illness/infirmity/disease? until I discovered this newsgroup and saw the subject of "hyperacusis 100 x worse than tinnitus."  Before I even clicked on the first posting, I knew that that must be what I have, because it is at LEAST 100 times worse, as I have been mostly housebound for the last month-and-a-half due to my lack of tolerance for the noisy everyday world.

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Robert E. Seletsky <mem…@sprintmail.com cyberscribed: High Flight wrote: Robert E. Seletsky <mem…@sprintmail.com cyberscribed: The big T specialists–Nagler, Jastreboff (both in Atlanta), Marsha Johnson (Portland, OR), Susan Gold (Baltimore) [not in any order of preference]–all deal with H as well as T. The reduction of H is actually pretty fast compared to T habituation. Even with no treatment, you will find that the H improves dramatically by itself over not that long a time. Eventually it will be almost normal–the really dramatic loud sounds will make you jump, but normal noise won’t be a problem, except that for some of us, it makes T louder. ————– You can’t possibly know, or predict, what that particular person’s h will, or will not do, in the future.  If your dismissive scenario were true, then organizations like The Hyperacusis Network wouldnt exist; no doctor would be treating it. Your simplistic optimism is unfounded, reckless and irresponsible.                                 Jack —————- You know, Jack, Please spare me the patronization. E-mail is a funny thing. One finds ones’ self writing things that one would probably never say on the phone or live. So I will put your unnecessarily harsh reply in that context. One, this isn’t email (your credibility is shot from the start).  Two, in terms of writing style, you (once again) can speak only for yourself, not others. As for the content of my post, anyone who knows me would laugh at a description of me as "simplistically optimistic"; You are what you write. heck, most people would never use the term "optimism" in the same sentence with my name. What I wrote is based not only on my own ghastly T/H experience, but is something of summary of information posted by the esteemed professionals I list in the above post. If you go back through posts to this support group, you will find those statements repeatedly from Nagler, Johnson, and Gold: that H is faster and easier to treat than T. Also, you will find that many people have written to say that they notice a dramatic lessening in their H over time, though not, alas, T–including myself. What a bunch of rubbish.  You told him, in no uncertain terms, what will happen with -his- h. Of course, no one’s experience is universal, and I wouldn’t dream of positing such a thing, Your post speaks for itself. but it is fair and humane to report to a new sufferer some note of hope based on the observation of one’s own and others’ experience, as articulated in this very support group. Balderdash.  You didn’t give him hope, you gave him a guarantee.  You didn’t say "might," or "possibly," you said "will."  That, to me, is unfair and inhumane. I don’t think "unfounded, reckless, and irresponsible" describes any of the above. Well I do think.  And I stand by what -I- posted.                                 Jack

——— Then allow me to be harsh: this is a support group, not a boxing ring. If you insist on being combattive, do it elsewhere. There are plenty of civil ways to disagree and you have chosen none of them. As we know (at least I hope you do), stress can worsen people’s T, so your ranting is completely counter-productive. B

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Thanks for the information.  Hopefully that good day does indeed fortell better days to come.  Sometimes a little bit of hope is enough to help you make it through the day in better spirits.

Forget the ENTs; they don’t know anything and don’t care.

You’re not kidding.  My ENT gave me an allergy test while I was on Claritin.  Stupid me, I didn’t realize that the drug was suppressing the reactions I was supposed to get from the test!  And he had prescribed the Claritin himself! Andrew Gulliver

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -High Flight wrote:

Robert E. Seletsky <mem…@sprintmail.com cyberscribed: The big T specialists–Nagler, Jastreboff (both in Atlanta), Marsha Johnson (Portland, OR), Susan Gold (Baltimore) [not in any order of preference]–all deal with H as well as T. The reduction of H is actually pretty fast compared to T habituation. Even with no treatment, you will find that the H improves dramatically by itself over not that long a time. Eventually it will be almost normal–the really dramatic loud sounds will make you jump, but normal noise won’t be a problem, except that for some of us, it makes T louder.

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You can’t possibly know, or predict, what that particular person’s h will, or will not do, in the future.  If your dismissive scenario were true, then organizations like The Hyperacusis Network wouldnt exist; no doctor would be treating it. Your simplistic optimism is unfounded, reckless and irresponsible.                                 Jack

—————- You know, Jack, E-mail is a funny thing. One finds ones’ self writing things that one would probably never say on the phone or live. So I will put your unnecessarily harsh reply in that context. As for the content of my post, anyone who knows me would laugh at a description of me as "simplistically optimistic"; heck, most people would never use the term "optimism" in the same sentence with my name. What I wrote is based not only on my own ghastly T/H experience, but is something of summary of information posted by the esteemed professionals I list in the above post. If you go back through posts to this support group, you will find those statements repeatedly from Nagler, Johnson, and Gold: that H is faster and easier to treat than T. Also, you will find that many people have written to say that they notice a dramatic lessening in their H over time, though not, alas, T–including myself. Of course, no one’s experience is universal, and I wouldn’t dream of positing such a thing, but it is fair and humane to report to a new sufferer some note of hope based on the observation of one’s own and others’ experience, as articulated in this very support group. I don’t think "unfounded, reckless, and irresponsible" describes any of the above. Best, Bob Seletsky

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Hi, The big T specialists–Nagler, Jastreboff (both in Atlanta), Marsha Johnson (Portland, OR), Susan Gold (Baltimore) [not in any order of preference]–all deal with H as well as T. The reduction of H is actually pretty fast compared to T habituation. Even with no treatment, you will find that the H improves dramatically by itself over not that long a time. Eventually it will be almost normal–the really dramatic loud sounds will make you jump, but normal noise won’t be a problem, except that for some of us, it makes T louder. Your good day just foretold things to come. Forget the ENTs; they don’t know anything and don’t care. The e-mail addresses for the above people are scattered all through posts on this support group and should be very easy to find. Best wishes, Bob Seletsky – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Andrew Gulliver wrote:

I developed tinnitus and hyperacusis recently, and the cause had nothing to do with loud noises.  I woke up one morning with Sudden Hearing Loss, and two days later developed tinnitus.  After Prednisone brought some of that hearing back (except the high frequencies), I discovered I had hyperacusis as well as tinnitus. An MRI turned up no obvious cause, so the consensus seems to be it was either a virus or something to do with my allergies, which I didn’t know I had until about a year ago.  The doctors admitted that "virus" is really another word for "we don’t know" what caused it. What I don’t understand is why the hearing clinic (one of the major hearing clinics in the world) never mentioned a single word about hyperacusis.  I described my inability to bear high-pitched sounds (water, paper crinkling, plastic wrap, computer beeps etc.) without reaching for my ears, or loud noises (vacuums, driving, music, too many people talking at once), and at no time did any of the three doctors mention hyperacusis.  They had huge pamphlets about tinnitus and every other ear disorder, but not a single word about that.  In fact, I had no idea I had the illness/infirmity/disease? until I discovered this newsgroup and saw the subject of "hyperacusis 100 x worse than tinnitus."  Before I even clicked on the first posting, I knew that that must be what I have, because it is at LEAST 100 times worse, as I have been mostly housebound for the last month-and-a-half due to my lack of tolerance for the noisy everyday world. Does anyone know why some of the most prestigious ear doctors in the world would not mention a word of this, would not have it listed in any of their comprehensive literature dealing with hearing loss and tinnitus, and instead would tell me "they don’t know what’s going on?" I was also told that stress reducers would be the best way of dealing with tinnitus (yoga, relaxation techniques), but there was no mention of TRT.  Is this considered "fringe medicine" among the "official" doctors, or do they just not know how to deal with hyperacusis because they can’t measure it? The doctors at the clinic didn’t warn me to avoid loud noises as much as possible during my healing process, and after about a month (when I had recovered from most of my Prednisone side-effects), I eventually went to a classical concert featuring only five players.  Even though the music wasn’t terribly loud (the highs were quite strident, though), the applause was impossible to take, and I was so overwhelmed by all the noises that I had to leave at intermission.  Later that night, however, I noticed that for the first time since the onset of hyperacusis, that problem completely vanished.  Although the tinnitus and the hearing loss remained, I was the happiest person on earth.  And then just a mere 24 hours later, the hyperacusis returned.  Has anyone had a similar experience as this?  The doctor said it was probably just a coincidence that the extreme noise happened when I (temporarily) lost my hyperacusis.  Is it a good sign that my hyperacusis vanished, if only for a short time, or is it a bad sign that it reappeared so quickly? Should I in fact always have the TV and radio off for the next few months in the hope of possibly recovering again? Does anyone know of good clinics in the United States who have a decent success rate with treating hyperacusis?  Is there a better way of treating it than some of the other ways? Since allergies (and especially food allergies) can supposedly cause Sudden Hearing Loss, I’m wondering if anybody noticed any change in their hearing problems after having their allergies successfully treated?  I will be given a comprehensive allergy test of both inhalants and foods to find out what I should avoid.  The $200 version you get at the ENT is not specific enough and doesn’t cover food allergies.  The thought that one can lose their hearing due to eating a certain food is frightening, especially if you don’t know what those foods might be, and therefore you continue to eat them. I also read somewhere about how applying pressure to your forehead with your hand can change tinnitus if it was caused by temple-mandibular-something-or-other.  However, while my tinnitus gets louder when I do that, it doesn’t get louder when I clench my teeth, which was supposed to be another test.  I have a feeling that everybody with tinnitus, regardless of cause, can change the volume, pitch, etc. of their tinnitus by clenching, applying pressure, etc.  Any opinions on this? Thanks for any help you might be able to provide. Andrew Gulliver

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I developed tinnitus and hyperacusis recently, and the cause had nothing to do with loud noises.  I woke up one morning with Sudden Hearing Loss, and two days later developed tinnitus.  After Prednisone brought some of that hearing back (except the high frequencies), I discovered I had hyperacusis as well as tinnitus. An MRI turned up no obvious cause, so the consensus seems to be it was either a virus or something to do with my allergies, which I didn’t know I had until about a year ago.  The doctors admitted that "virus" is really another word for "we don’t know" what caused it. What I don’t understand is why the hearing clinic (one of the major hearing clinics in the world) never mentioned a single word about hyperacusis.  I described my inability to bear high-pitched sounds (water, paper crinkling, plastic wrap, computer beeps etc.) without reaching for my ears, or loud noises (vacuums, driving, music, too many people talking at once), and at no time did any of the three doctors mention hyperacusis.  They had huge pamphlets about tinnitus and every other ear disorder, but not a single word about that.  In fact, I had no idea I had the illness/infirmity/disease? until I discovered this newsgroup and saw the subject of "hyperacusis 100 x worse than tinnitus."  Before I even clicked on the first posting, I knew that that must be what I have, because it is at LEAST 100 times worse, as I have been mostly housebound for the last month-and-a-half due to my lack of tolerance for the noisy everyday world. Does anyone know why some of the most prestigious ear doctors in the world would not mention a word of this, would not have it listed in any of their comprehensive literature dealing with hearing loss and tinnitus, and instead would tell me "they don’t know what’s going on?" I was also told that stress reducers would be the best way of dealing with tinnitus (yoga, relaxation techniques), but there was no mention of TRT.  Is this considered "fringe medicine" among the "official" doctors, or do they just not know how to deal with hyperacusis because they can’t measure it? The doctors at the clinic didn’t warn me to avoid loud noises as much as possible during my healing process, and after about a month (when I had recovered from most of my Prednisone side-effects), I eventually went to a classical concert featuring only five players.  Even though the music wasn’t terribly loud (the highs were quite strident, though), the applause was impossible to take, and I was so overwhelmed by all the noises that I had to leave at intermission.  Later that night, however, I noticed that for the first time since the onset of hyperacusis, that problem completely vanished.  Although the tinnitus and the hearing loss remained, I was the happiest person on earth.  And then just a mere 24 hours later, the hyperacusis returned.  Has anyone had a similar experience as this?  The doctor said it was probably just a coincidence that the extreme noise happened when I (temporarily) lost my hyperacusis.  Is it a good sign that my hyperacusis vanished, if only for a short time, or is it a bad sign that it reappeared so quickly? Should I in fact always have the TV and radio off for the next few months in the hope of possibly recovering again? Does anyone know of good clinics in the United States who have a decent success rate with treating hyperacusis?  Is there a better way of treating it than some of the other ways? Since allergies (and especially food allergies) can supposedly cause Sudden Hearing Loss, I’m wondering if anybody noticed any change in their hearing problems after having their allergies successfully treated?  I will be given a comprehensive allergy test of both inhalants and foods to find out what I should avoid.  The $200 version you get at the ENT is not specific enough and doesn’t cover food allergies.  The thought that one can lose their hearing due to eating a certain food is frightening, especially if you don’t know what those foods might be, and therefore you continue to eat them.   I also read somewhere about how applying pressure to your forehead with your hand can change tinnitus if it was caused by temple-mandibular-something-or-other.  However, while my tinnitus gets louder when I do that, it doesn’t get louder when I clench my teeth, which was supposed to be another test.  I have a feeling that everybody with tinnitus, regardless of cause, can change the volume, pitch, etc. of their tinnitus by clenching, applying pressure, etc.  Any opinions on this? Thanks for any help you might be able to provide. Andrew Gulliver

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You may not have damaged your ears, just reverted to the time before you learned how to cope with the tinnitus and now have to relearn it again. Some might call this a relapse. Focusing on the tinnitus sounds is one of our problems and we have to learn to ignore them. The fireworks refocused your attention on the ringing and you haven’t yet stopped worrying about it. As soon as you notice the ringing, concentrate on something else. Also convince yourself that it isn’t the end of the world to hear the tinnitus. It’s OK that you hear these sounds just that you’d rather not hear them. You’ll be OK as soon as you stop worrying about them. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Dave Tudor wrote:

My T and H are noise induced. Originally 10 years ago after playing in a loud rock band and more recently after exposure to loud fireworks. I don’t know how to explain how I’m feeling at the moment. Generally my condition is much worse after the recent fireworks. I’m finding it difficult to listen to music but my H has been at a level over the last 3 days where my left ear is just sore, not only in noisy environments but quiet ones also. Yesterday I saw my hearing specialist and discovered that my hearing in both ears is still within normal limits, but my left ear feels terrible – ringy, hissy, sensitive and strangely deafened, although the hearing test yesterday suggests that my hearing loss is minimal. Not sure what to do about the H, becuase oddly mine doesn’t seem to be relative to the environment I’m in. It can be really painful just sitting in a quiet room. I had it before and after a long time it subsided, but at the moment things aren’t too good. My specialist has referred me to a hearing therapist who’s going to see if things like TRT could be an option. At the moment my ear feels like it doesn’t belong to me !! I’ve always struggled with the concept of tinnitus and pain. Many specialists believe that there is a direct link, and certainly in the ear, both are often the result of damage in some shape or form. I think I could adjust to my T if it was the only problem, but couple this up with the H and also the ’sensation’ of hearing loss and its pgoddamn awful !! My one saving grace and hope is that 8 years ago I was feeling the same way, but I overcame it. I sincerely believe that time can be a good healer. As I have said 8 years ago I was very depressed and thought there was no way out, but I did survive it and come out OK. Today, I’m still struggling with the fact that it would appear that I’ve damaged my ears again, but I do believe that in time things do get better. Regards Dave Giacomo MV wrote in message <8a4n80$c5…@serv1.albacom.net… I know that there are many different causes for H and I would like to know if there are here people with H caused by exposure to loud noise: I would like to talk to them!! For example, does this kind of H affect both ears or just one? what’s your pain level? what happens to you when you hear a painful (to you) sound? is your H stable or did it worsen through the years? and if it worsened: why? do you think that there’s also a mental component for your H? thank you Giacomo

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My one saving grace and hope is that 8 years ago I was feeling the same way, but I overcame it.

Hi Dave, Keep this in mind, and repeat it to yourself regularly.  You will get better again.  You did it once, and adjusted, and you will do it again.  I just went through the same thing AGAIN myself, and I have to tell you…I felt pretty awful a month ago, but am fine again today. Marlayna

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I posted  topic "hyperacusis 100 x etc..".I have tinnitus and hyperacusis which are caused by exposure to loud noise.I used to play drums and go often music concerts only sometimes using earplugs. Here is answers to your questions in my case:Other ear(left) is more sensitive allso tinnitus is louder in that.Pain level:about 60-70db,high frequency noise is badder.I don’t feel pain in that moment when i am exposured to noise,pain comes afterwards(earache,headache).My H+T is developed slowly.First (about 5 years ago) I had only T after loud concerts,then I had permanent T after one extreme loud consert,then I used to have H after not so loud concerts etc.Nowadays I can’t go almost anyplace outside my home without my custom made earplugs.I wish I had bought those years ago…Moods and other mental things affects  little to my H. Sorry this post got little bit long but if you wanna ask something else I can reply straight to your e-mail address. J.L

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My T and H are noise induced. Originally 10 years ago after playing in a loud rock band and more recently after exposure to loud fireworks. I don’t know how to explain how I’m feeling at the moment. Generally my condition is much worse after the recent fireworks. I’m finding it difficult to listen to music but my H has been at a level over the last 3 days where my left ear is just sore, not only in noisy environments but quiet ones also. Yesterday I saw my hearing specialist and discovered that my hearing in both ears is still within normal limits, but my left ear feels terrible – ringy, hissy, sensitive and strangely deafened, although the hearing test yesterday suggests that my hearing loss is minimal. Not sure what to do about the H, becuase oddly mine doesn’t seem to be relative to the environment I’m in. It can be really painful just sitting in a quiet room. I had it before and after a long time it subsided, but at the moment things aren’t too good. My specialist has referred me to a hearing therapist who’s going to see if things like TRT could be an option. At the moment my ear feels like it doesn’t belong to me !! I’ve always struggled with the concept of tinnitus and pain. Many specialists believe that there is a direct link, and certainly in the ear, both are often the result of damage in some shape or form. I think I could adjust to my T if it was the only problem, but couple this up with the H and also the ’sensation’ of hearing loss and its pgoddamn awful !! My one saving grace and hope is that 8 years ago I was feeling the same way, but I overcame it. I sincerely believe that time can be a good healer. As I have said 8 years ago I was very depressed and thought there was no way out, but I did survive it and come out OK. Today, I’m still struggling with the fact that it would appear that I’ve damaged my ears again, but I do believe that in time things do get better. Regards Dave – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Giacomo MV wrote in message <8a4n80$c5…@serv1.albacom.net

… I know that there are many different causes for H and I would like to know if there are here people with H caused by exposure to loud noise: I would like to talk to them!! For example, does this kind of H affect both ears or just one? what’s your pain level? what happens to you when you hear a painful (to you) sound? is your H stable or did it worsen through the years? and if it worsened: why? do you think that

there’s

also a mental component for your H? thank you Giacomo

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I know that there are many different causes for H and I would like to know if there are here people with H caused by exposure to loud noise: I would like to talk to them!! For example, does this kind of H affect both ears or just one? what’s your pain level? what happens to you when you hear a painful (to you) sound? is your H stable or did it worsen through the years? and if it worsened: why? do you think that there’s also a mental component for your H? thank you Giacomo

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Why would someone attack you? You found something that worked for you, I would take that as great news.

I was kidding really.  But there are some anti-unconventional medicine lurkers around here….! :) :)

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I will post this once again at the risk of attack! I had terrible hyperacusis three years ago.  Just woke up with it one day after having bearable tinnitus for many years. Several sinus infections, tylenol, sudafed and claritin were the possible culprits of the "worsening". At any rate, I tried lots of acupuncturists.  One had me open my jaw slightly and put needles directly in front of my earlobe and behind (when you put your fingers there and open your jaw you can feel the opening).  Several days after each treatment, I would hear a crackling noise.  After I pulled on my earlobe for a day or so, the crackling would subside, normal, undistorted hearing would return and I could live again. I BELIEVE my e tubes were full of fluid/mucous/etc.  This treatment helped eliminate the fluid. It’s worth a try. I am not cured, and still struggle with it, but it is nowhere near as bad as it once was.  In fact, I think I will return again, as I can feel allergies are returning the symptoms. Good luck all.

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  marl…@aol.com (Marly67) wrote:

I will post this once again at the risk of attack!

Why would someone attack you? You found something that worked for you, I would take that as great news. I had terrible hyperacusis three years ago.  Just woke up with it one day after – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -

having bearable tinnitus for many years. Several sinus infections, tylenol, sudafed and claritin were the

possible

culprits of the "worsening". At any rate, I tried lots of acupuncturists.  One had me open my jaw

slightly

and put needles directly in front of my earlobe and behind (when you

put your

fingers there and open your jaw you can feel the opening).  Several

days after

each treatment, I would hear a crackling noise.  After I pulled on my

earlobe

for a day or so, the crackling would subside, normal, undistorted

hearing would

return and I could live again. I BELIEVE my e tubes were full of fluid/mucous/etc.  This treatment

helped

eliminate the fluid. It’s worth a try. I am not cured, and still struggle with it, but it is nowhere near as

bad as it

once was.  In fact, I think I will return again, as I can feel

allergies are

returning the symptoms. Good luck all.

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